Its been a long rainy day and i just lie on my bed watching shows and movies. its quite boring yea. but i gotta work later. oh man. it sucks but i need cash. LOL. and work is a form of entertainment to me actually.

i always wished i could cherish the person infront of me but the devil side of me always want more than that. i really dunno what i am. it feels like i dunno myself well. i woke this morning and i felt foreign. i was hit in my head for what i've been doing for the couple of years. the devil wan to run loose in me but there is always an instant when an angel subdue him for awhile. i kinda hate myself for making a disaster to my life. i wasnt born with a sliverspoon yet i act like a spoilt brat. goddamn it. i taken my life for granted and now i m slap right in my face with my own hands.

it's gonna be a new me from today onwards. make sure i do that or slap me if i go back to my old ways.