memories of a hero

Feeling uneasy...

2011-12-15T14:29:00.002+08:00

its time i turn to my diary after so long. sorry i neglected you.

why its time to come back here, u may ask. the reason would be that i found out that i might be in love with my bestfriend whom i always have a heart to heart talk with. i would rather not let her find out that i have feelings for her, so i cant find her to talk about this. this explains why i m talkin to u again.

i chose to run away from her coz i m too embarrassed to express my feelings to her, also knowing that it will lead to nowhere eventually. i decided to run away for a year, not contacting her. i know it hard but i hope the feelings would just fade. meeting her as usual would prolly increase the chances of telling her the truth which i dont want.

to my bestfriend:

When i know u saw someone u like and u told me about it happily. it hurts.
When u say there is no one that u know fitted to be a candidate, it hurts.
When i know in your heart i m nth more than just a bestfriend, it hurts.
And when u know that i m leaving u, u got hurt, it hurts even more.
I hope u forgive me for running away for i m not ready to tell u the truth.
God bless us both.

07/08

2010-08-07T04:42:00.002+08:00

its reach the nation's birthday soon, long wkend ahead till monday.. doesnt affect me coz i m currently unemployed.. i officially declare myself a month off so i can play hard before i head to army. 1 month for 2 years, not bad a deal hor. haha

after grad, I've travelled to 3 countries, first was bangkok den to vietnam and ending with hong kong. nice experience seriously to feel like a tourist and to see so so many things which people talk about before. and i m not travelling to and fro Johor to maximise my salary by multiplying by 2. hahahah. i watch a movie for 6ringgit which is equivalent to 2-3sing. so bloody cheap la. i can watch 4 movies with 1 movie in singapore.. wth rite u must be feeling.

and i saw a shooting star while staring rite into the sky... so damn cool la. i swear its the first time it happened to me. and i have a feeling its gonna be something good. and no i never wish for a girlfriend.

enlisting on the 26 aug, hope everything goes well for me.. i believe there will be a couple more posts before i go in to show how excited and anxious i am.. becoming a real man soon.

2010-06-14T00:58:00.003+08:00

after a period of time from stop heading to arab street, it feels like a whole new place to me. the nasrin restaurant renovated and become so so nice though i still head for the original outlet. nasrin had 2 places btw. head down there for a quick fix of "opium". haha. chillax and watching world cup.. i guess i have ran out of places for chilling.

recently, i heard a song. lyrics go like this, "a friend in need is a friend indeed, a friend no money i no need". haha. i had quite a laugh, its so true in this society nowadays.. anw, i wanna search for the title of this song and i counldnt. need some help here actually if u are dun mind pls.

i m on the way to 4 midnight shifts... hahah. $$$$ i can see it coming.. i need it for my hk trip... yay!!!

ciao folks.

2010-06-11T21:09:00.002+08:00

dear journal,

my frens were back on track to hk.. everything now is goin smoothly. thank god, if not tzy cant go... so now i will start saving for that trip in order for it to happen... guess there will be a meetup soon to plan for the itinerary.. cant wait cant wait! wanted to ask yilin along yet she gonna start school soon. thats sad. haha. guess wat, a fren of mine said yilin smile is WOOOO! haha. i thought so too as well as for the rest of my girlfriends.

well well, bernard failed his driving test again. i dunno why he must always DO that!! hahaha. haiz, sad case for him. his second test and he din passed. this young man got hell lots of money to retake tests! what can i say, no honda stream for the weekends. haiz... been hyped about the stream and road trips but guess that can wait..

i finally finally realised something.... lynnie struck that at my head. its like an enlightment. all along i have been saying my break up was mutual which i din really know what was the reason.. lynnie one sentence explained to me everything..... the reason i broke up was because she loved me more than i loved her. my actions cause really serious hurting that she can take no more therefore the break. all 3 years i've been searching yet i couldnt find some1. guess no one rite now loved me as much as she did.. i've failed thoroughly as a bf..

suck it up kid.

2010-06-10T02:19:00.002+08:00

dear journal,

today i booked tickets to hong kong. but it is just me and wang xu(sec sch) who booked first. there are problems rite now. haiz.. so troublesome so so... man oh man.. why cant people just be more simpler! on the other hand, people wun be normal if we are simple.. simpler persons have another name, names maybe, bad bad names. what are people thinking about this days... such selfish people.. omg la.. care to tell me how to solve this pls?? we have exhausted almost all options and now we gt no way out!

2010-06-09T00:33:00.003+08:00

what a day.. an off day and i can spend time with 2 grps of frens. had a trip to haji lane first to look at shirts and stuffs with bernard's frens.. den after to plaza sing for SEX and the city 2 with poly clique.. samantha is a damn whore! i love her screams, man!! such sex drive is totally crazy! i love it so much..

marriage, what is it suppose to mean? hahah. a topic worth to ponder about but!! its too long for me still... maybe 20 years from now... is it suppose to be like work? 5days work and 2days off?? i dun think so...

DUBAI is OVER! Abu Dhabi is the New MiddleEast..

so long for now folks..

i needa watch vampirediaries now...

2010-06-04T00:29:00.004+08:00

i have finish so NCIS and GLEE. so many episodes alr. i think i m going for NCIS:LA and vampire diaries....

there is so much things to learn in GLEE. life lessons. really so much. let yrself be who you are, right? u will feel so much better this way. yes, u may be a homo and u might be afraid to say it out. if u are confident about who u are den everyone will accept u. or like lady gaga, she is someone whom is so phenomenal, she dress like a freak but so many ppl still like her. its the confidence in you..

stop wasting time trying to be like everyone else. omg, there is totally no originality in you like this. u gotta be different, coz we are all individuals.

and i think my car is slow.damn...

2010-06-02T02:58:00.002+08:00

hey peeps, after so long...i finally blog again. i dunno who is still looking at my blog but i just treat it like i m talking to my journal, a confidant...

so hi journal, its been long since i talk to you. i dunno why but i realise u listen to me quietly and i kinda like this. i haven been talking to anyone like this for a long time. i guess the time it happen when it was with amanda, u know my sec sch classmate cum bestie.. it was like sec3? till now, 4years ago. look journal, i have been having my probs lately. i dunno what is happening. colleagues are such a nuisance. i m goin to be a sec sch kid rite now, coz i m gonna type like 1!

i hate backstabbers, two head snakes or whatever those are called. i kinda have these problems now, arent they suppose to be puberty problems? for god sake, they can be like friends in front of you and they go behind your back and talk bad. all i wan is that they can be honest and not act like hypocrites. i can take criticisms i guess. maybe they will be a limit but...
i just wanna run away from thr coz their hypocrite are really pissing me off... i dun wanna blow my top coz its so not me. i got a temper but it wun really explode till i reach the limit and i can proudly say my threshold is deep like really deep. damn.......................................

journal, i wanna tell u i graduate from NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC. i gt a diploma, yes, a solid certificate within my arms. it is a joy that i graduate but somehow i graduate with medicore scores. nt those that i m proud of and what my parents should be proud of so i din invite them. i wonder whats there to be proud of when majority is graduating with similar scores. unless, i hate to say the name, its like Fung Yi Biao, where everyone knows him and top scorer for BS aka bullshit. that reputation is worth to be proud of!

and journal, i guess i haven been truthful to you. i told amanda this thing so i guess i wanna tell u too. i m nt proud of a thing i do. i dunno what gotten into me. i really regret it and its the only thing i regret most now in my life. if i were to turn back time, i know i wun do it. (cliche) life goes on still. i m sorry ******. its a mistake we went out. now i m so afraid to face you.

so now i've graduate, i wanna make more money and so i can go traveling, come on who doesnt... i've been to thailand, vietnam, macau. i still wanna see more places.

for 2 years, both my grandfathers left after one another. its v hard for me to take it since i haven had any family pass on before. there will be one u will be closer to definitely and it is my paternal grandpa and he is the first to move on. smoking cost him his life... i m sort of like walking in his footsteps since i started smoking now. i was with him at his deathbed when he go, a pity i wasnt with my maternal grandpa when he left. he was in recuperation hospital but he din really get well. drinking cost him his life. he gt stroke and it last for a few years for now. when he left, i was in vietnam. i couldnt be thr on time when he left..

to both my grandpas:

u know i will always miss you no matter what. although we seldom talk, i just know you cared. we dun have common topics, we dun really have those family bonding sessions or whatsoever. so i swear to god my own family will feel that kind of love. i wanna have my family to share everything under the sun. boys having problems can come to me, girls having problems can go to my wife. and i will train them to be able to talk to kids like that too and so my grandkids wun feel that we have generation gap. i love you both wholeheartedly...

with love,
Philson aka ah boy

journal, pls tell me why i haven really gotten over her............................................................................
i really really tried so hard. everytime i go to a place where we have been before it brought back memories. many of them, countless. Too long I've been afraid of expressing how i felt, i have lost to the devil and i m kneeling to him begging for mercy. i m overpowered by him and i committed my worst mistake, my greatest regret.
cant live cant breathe with no air, its how i feel when i know you aint there....

i hope i can make it thru.....

cya journal

2010-01-30T03:37:00.003+08:00

recently, i bought a new camera. FUJIFLIM digital cam and i got hold of my grandpa's SLR. hahaha. the SLR runs on flim so i need to develop b4 knowing if the pics are nice. LOL. i hope my photography skills aint that lousy. if not it will be quite alot of money wasted.

i have tested my new cam for quite a number of days. and all works well.

2010-01-14T02:23:00.004+08:00

its a new year and i nid a new life. actually i might be entering into a new life pretty soon. hmmm, guess wat. i m sure to enlist in this year, tts wat i m talking about. the life of a army personnel. haiz... 2 yrs of torture. to some it just seem to be a journey of no-responsiblities life, u just return to ur childhood n be carefree like nobody business. but for me, it goin to be torturing. LOL... just lets hope that i do get gd army mates, prolly to add on, frens for life kind of thing.

just a small update of my life, i m on attachment currently. ending v soon. before new year.. hahah. new year eve is my last day of attachment. hahah. lets get ready for a family reunion!!

5mths of attachment had passed. gd frens made fortunately. =))

i think i need to be more proactive in asking my frens out. if not we are just frens in fb or watever it maybe. hahaha.

alrite mates. i shall see u next time. i think will post more photos up the next round i blog. coz there are pretty much chances to take pics....

here are 2 for fun:

proof of me not working. LOLOLOL.. OMG!!!
ps: i had finished my job okay!!

My staff working so hard. polishing my metal displays. LOL

proof of her working

2009-12-10T05:31:00.002+08:00

have nt blog for months.... here is one short post on updates of my life.

currently still doin my attachment. its been 3 months. i m goin v strong in my passion for F&B. hopefully i can keep on growing the passion. 1 person say to me recently that it is unwise to make a career out of a passion coz u will grow to detest it in the future. on the contrary, most ppl say that passion is what that keeps u goin on in your career therefore pick one that u have passion for. LOL. v contradicting.

i m guilty for a reason. i feel so bad so so bad. i dunno what i m doin in this direction. it seems that there isnt a light at the end of the tunnel. i m playing with FIRE!! damn it. i m so so afraid i might get burn.

ok, my attachement is goin to end in like 2mths plus. WOOO.......... *FREEDOM, FREEDOM* ~~akon song

signing off

2009-09-15T23:39:00.002+08:00

a week and 2 days of attachment. i kinda cant tahan alr. the whole culture is different and i have problems adapting to it. haha. the people, the work, the whole thing. haiz.. 1st week was treachous. my feet hurt so badly after standing 8 hrs. i even bought a new pair of shoes that were suited for standing but still like useless.
i at there ar, kena order to do this and that. den gt one manager still give attitude to me. like wtf la. damn piss with her sia. but i gt to 'LUN' (endure). if not my whole sem is gone just like that. hmmm, gpa 4.0 or not gotta see whether how deep my threshold is liao. argh, bloody opportunity cost. sibei not worth it. if i were to go to China for the attachment, probably just probably, it might be better. maybe there the ppl are more friendly. Singaporeans ar, all kinds of attitude oso have. pattern more than badminton.
enough said. saying more only make me boil. hope the experience and skills learned can be so much more if not den super duper not worth it...

wkends are so much better. actually is just sat. after work at 330pm, den it becomes happening. enjoyed the night. hahaha. firstly was sakura buffet with the mcd crew den aftwards, Wii at my frens house till 4plus. 'sibei song' (super shiok), first time play. LOL. like mountain tortoise sia. make me wanna buy the next day la. haha. if i buy, den my friends would 'ton' at my house alr.

i also had plans to buy the ipod touch too. so sun wanted to go but in the end fren last min put aeroplane. den the whole day i stayed at hm liao. bloody boring la.

Now my wishlist is like:
1) Ipod Touch
2) Wii

hope attachment pay can support my wishlist. LOL.

2009-09-01T16:29:00.002+08:00

Its been a long rainy day and i just lie on my bed watching shows and movies. its quite boring yea. but i gotta work later. oh man. it sucks but i need cash. LOL. and work is a form of entertainment to me actually.

i always wished i could cherish the person infront of me but the devil side of me always want more than that. i really dunno what i am. it feels like i dunno myself well. i woke this morning and i felt foreign. i was hit in my head for what i've been doing for the couple of years. the devil wan to run loose in me but there is always an instant when an angel subdue him for awhile. i kinda hate myself for making a disaster to my life. i wasnt born with a sliverspoon yet i act like a spoilt brat. goddamn it. i taken my life for granted and now i m slap right in my face with my own hands.

it's gonna be a new me from today onwards. make sure i do that or slap me if i go back to my old ways.

2009-09-01T12:37:00.000+08:00

Exams are over and i have semi-graduated from NP. i wun be goin there until my graduation day probably. now awaits me is the long journey of internship at Dome cafe. My original place would be at Terminal 1. OMG. goin back to the same place after a period of 4 mths only. Intially for my 2mths internship go T2 now go T1. last time still gt lunch buddies, afraid now i do not have liao. coz the break time for cafe will not be standardized.

2009-08-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

cool man. i just used plurk excessively. started today so gt lots of craze for it. but its like need to maintain plurk and blog. so many things to do. haha. and also fb. i currently started back on friendster and oso tagged. for some fun la. apparently i still gt some frens who still lives in the frenster age. LOL. one fren is Lynette. she wants to use both. i dunno why la since both are similar.

anyway, back to sch stuffs.last exam paper liao. damn egg-cited. i saw this word while hopping. haha. so wierd but i try using it. there are also so many acronyms la. like BP is difficult ttm. haha. also saw it while hopping. my frens doesnt use those acronyms often den become i also dunno. its as if i gt gap with the internet generation when i m suppose to be one of them. LOL. irony spotted.

wonder where i will be posted to huh? for my attachement. and they goin to have 3hr meeting. walao. sibei long la. dunno want to talk wat oso. lol. I m gonna be a assistant mananger in a restaurant OK! haha. at least no SKW, another wierd word which i found.

i m goin to studying alr!! CIAO folks.

2009-08-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

wooops!
today's paper was a breeze!! easy peasy man. hahhahahah. well, that was the third paper that i m doin and 1 last paper to go on friday. well, 1 week of hols is approaching and i m damn happy la. finally gt holiday again.

today had a goddamn hearty chat with wan yi and bernard. talk cock sing song play mahjong. supposedly to study de but in the end wan yi, lappy spoilt. haha. first instinct is the motherboard crash. sibei suay la. so in the end din study lor.

hope BP can be easy oso. coz the proj is shit difficult. *pray pray*

2009-08-24T02:10:00.000+08:00

hey fellas!! how did the weekends come along???
mine was pretty well. watched hell lots of movies with a bud,nic. oh well, as bud nic says, we are one man down. so whos gonna spend the great evening with us? no one actually. its me and him, him and me kinda thing. it aint gay shat. we are buds. prolly we are just counting down to the day when both of us are hitched. hahahaha.=D

i was thinking thinking really thinking hard on the past. and i haven sorted out the confusing things that i had done when most of the time, i shldnt. it's just so f-ed up. i screwed my whole life. looking at ppl's perfect life, counting on the possibility, i m so jealous of it.

i was wooing a gal on the recent, but i met obstacles. it is so huge like mount everest. u may think ppl had actually conquer that but out of the world's population, how significant is that group of ppl? it's prolly like 1 in 10000000? i dunno why but i have no confidence at all. absolutely...

to end on a high note, i have no exams till wed which actually give me ample time to study.
GOOD LUCK MATES.

p/s: I Love You

2009-08-21T20:37:00.000+08:00

Wooo!! today is such a nice day man!
I passed my DRIVING liao. hip hip hooray!!
and also is the start of my first exam paper. bomb too much at 1st question den become no time at the others. LOL. but i still can finish lor. though some qns the ans nt so complete.

i m thinking and thinking why somethings are meant to be like that. hmmmmm....
it sets the thinking cap on man. what is the difference being stubborn and persistent? so similar yet so different right?

JIA YOU GUYS!
some had finish exams, whilst some haven like me..
nonetheless, we shld jia you in life!!

art of letting go

2009-08-19T18:13:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for a long time. reason why i started again coz i chanced upon a v interesting article. haha. read on fellows!!

"The Art of Letting Go"

One of the reason why people get sentimental
its because memories are the only things
that dont change ...
when everything else does..
there is things in life that you cant hold
on forever no matter how much you fight for it..
Sometimes destiny isn't always good it becomes
playful.. when you met someone you learn to love
you thought it was destiny who made your paths cross
but what if making your path cross is just a part of
the game that the playful destiny create?
making you realize in the end that the person you thought
that was the one destined for you wasnt really
meant to stay.. but only destined to make you feel
love and leave you when you already fallen.
its not easy to state a reason when you decide
to leave your love..
some might think its just an excuse..some might not
actually believe.. some will blame you..
some might even be mad at you..
what they dont see is the fact that..its hurts
you even more to hurt someone who
doesn't deserve to be hurt..
especially when you cant actually state the
reason why you have to leave..
you can never own something that was never yours..
so lets stop gripping on the things we
expect to last forever... nothing last forever.
forever is a lie..everything is transitory.
so while you have something in your hand put
in your mind that its just a borrowed ...
so that's someday when its gone its wont take you
eternity just to let it go..when ur feelings
get strong for someone,its always wise to stop for a while
and give your heart.. -A TIME TO BREATHE..
a time to use your mind to weigh the situation based on
reason not on emotion..because the saddest things
that can happen is when fall in love while the
other wants nothing more that friendship..
LOVE CAN SOMETIMES BE A MAGIC.. BUT MAGIC CAN SOMETIMES
BE AN ILLUSSION..there are times when i wish that i was
to certain emotions.. so that ill never have to experience
pain never feel betrayed or dissappointed..and never get
my fragile heart broken.. but the same things means that
ill never know how its feels to love and be love in return..
the thought of it kind of scares me..
to have a heart that's whole but numb or a heart thats broken
but real.. someday well all be looking back to those
days we learned to love hurt, cry and fight..
matbe when that times comes well be laughing at your old
dumb selves..realizing how stupid we were stand up
for things we knew weren't really meant for us..
but i guess learning takes time and mistakes
make one's journey fun.. life is what we make it.
love makes the world go round ..so lets live , love and
take whatever pain brings.. though its hard to wait
around for something i know will never happen..
its harder to stop when i know its everything
ive always wanted.. but you know what ?
im glad.. im glad it happened.. and im thankful for that...

2009-05-12T03:25:00.002+08:00

WOOO!!

I-M-POSSIBLE!!

spoke to her on msn, my very first step.

go poonie go poonie Go!!

2009-05-09T23:44:00.002+08:00

3 weeks since sch start. and having 2 public hols in 2 weeks. so shiok. but the second hol gt no link to sch though.

the motivation to study is still not there yet though. haiz.

2009-04-18T17:57:00.002+08:00

Paoshan(my big boss), Eng Kian(keep di siao one), me, Eugene SYH(my supervisor who likes techno)

well, this is not a very full picture as i have 2 more colleagues and 1 more team mate not in the picture. u see, we are supposed to work till 530 and Eng kian die die wanna finish the last stack of work and we delayed till 6pm. and they are gone. so abit regret. haiz.

everyday go work in the morning till i oso used to it. so now going back to sch is like so sian alr. the times in work is ok, not bad. at least i gt to know some SP ppl there. time flies, at a blink of my eyes 7 weeks just passed. although everyday go there to do data entry but still can slack and joke ard so its pretty much fun.

the most regretful thing is that i cant take a pic with my crush. AHHHH!! but at least we can continue to be frens and she is ok to meet me if i ask her out. woooo.

i cant bear to leave CAAS. =((

i cant bear to leave HER the MOST!!!!

well, celebration in the night at PHUTURE!! and i saw the girl who alights at expo when i go to work every morning. haha. play play with her for awhile. LOL. saw bridget, mark from my poly and stef from my pri sch. bet there is alot of poly ppl there as sch is starting soon. and and i saw FRANCIS 'GF'!!

2009-04-11T00:58:00.002+08:00

been to Tamp 1 two days in a row. the crowd is still a turn off la. today sum more 1 escalator broke down la. super lousy. second day den spoilt. like wtf man. been to the uni qlo, sum jap fashion store. shirts wise, is highly over rated. the stuffs aint as nice or good as it looks la. i can say it is not worth the crowd la. just becoz its the first doesnt mean it is the best. sumthing like cotton on. haha. i was quite reluctant to buy oso la. but if queue and dun buy, i will feel sorry for my time wasted la. so i just bought 1 tee. lol...

everyday, step by step i m moving towards my target. getting to know her well enough. and i found a SHOCKING truth bout her. haha. its like she doesnt have it on her physically but internally, she has in her.

seen a video on youtube. its the hokkien version of rihanna's umbrella. haha. i showed it to yuye and her reply was, i've seen it. haha. wth, i m so laggy la. haha. i gt to know this video from dixon, he posted it on fb. haha. it's quite funny la provided u understand hokkien, there is english subtitles as well but wun be as funny.

many happy news popping out of a sudden la. prolly i need to pull up my socks and add some oil to boost the process. wait for my good news but it will tk a long time. hopefully a year is enough. but i dun mind longer oso la. i think i just wan her.

2009-04-10T00:53:00.002+08:00

tml is good friday!! oops. i guess i shld say today. haha.
anyway, there is one good news which i wan to shout out. it is counting down to 1 week for my ATTACHMENT!!!! hahaha. isnt it a great news? but from another viewpoint, its also a bad news, school is starting soon. sibei sian. no holidays at all. super retarded.

lynnie ask me to go batam leh. haha, shld i or shld i not? but if she asks someone else to go and the person go, i swear i wun miss it. hahaha.

2009-04-04T15:31:00.002+08:00

great news folks!! haha. the gal that i m crazy about now, i gt her NUMBER alr!!! weeeee. as well as her email. hahahahahahahahhahahahahah. i m so so happy. really so so happy. happier than LYNETTE!! but i shld tahnk her as well. coz she know her and in the end all are frens, so it is easier to approach her for number.

work had been great!! easy work since the last few days there isnt much things to do. i still gt time to slp, imagine that. haha. but there is a risk of getting caught though. but there is one thing i hate about work. ok, not so much hatred la but abit of dislike. my supervisor always wanna see my activity log when in fact i need not show him at all. god damnit la. i need to write like wat SP have in their log. super stupid. super super stupid. i need to really stress about this as i cant give him a slip slop work. i gave him once and next thing, i guess u know also. fcking retarted man. for god sake, he is ex-NP student as well and he abuses his power to make me do things that are redundant. tmd.
enough said. gotta keep some good karma.

last night, i went to balaclava with junkai. nice place, nice music, nice live band. think need to be there early to actually book seats if not there is no seats at all. but the people there leave quite early. haha. got time can go again. and i think lynette might like the place. the place is super full of mature people. good looking as well.

2009-04-01T00:24:00.002+08:00

OMG!! i seen the fb of my target. she is so so sporty kind. hahaha. i like sia!! touch rug so more. i shld have joined since year 2 la!! goddamn it.

seen her on train today. was really wowwwww!!!!

ok nvm, u will find out if i get to know more about her. hehehe.

good nite folks. i m goin to have a swweeet dream. hopefully not 'wet'.. haha. just jk. i must be mad or even psychotic if i think of that. lynnie would just wallop me like there is not tmr.

2009-03-30T01:40:00.002+08:00

Well, lets start of with 'Life's a bitch'
weekends go pass so quickly that i can hardly feel it. by the time i starting to relax, weekends are already over. haiz. sad sad.

all i can say work is really terrible? but at least there is someone who can keep me goin on in there. it just feels so good to be able to see that someone whenever i feel like shit in work. the one is just like starbucks mocha frap, mc cafe double chocolate and maybe just maybe han's cafe kopi-si... haha. it really perks someone up. it seems like an addiction.

frens are a really good motivation. when u look at them being in love, u would wish that u were like that too. feeling the essence of love. awwwww. so sweet. so i m going to PURSUE my target. will be using a fierce strategy. strike while the iron is hot. i had enough of singlehood!! i can say it is rather terrible.

by the way. today is wang xu's "bird day". so i m wishing him here.
Happy 20th Birthday!! We all Love U! hope u like ur bdae present. we had a hard time choosing it.
he is out now with his frens travelling in a BMW. prolly that is his present from his poly mates. haha. let him have a taste of BMW power.

there are so many things out there to play, to see, to try but with limited finances all i can say is i have really limited choices. and i m walking out of POVERTY right this moment. I believe all wan that too.

good nite frens.

P/s: I hope u are having a gr8 time in beijing. coz i hope i din spoil ur mood that day by going over to u and saying hi. it just hurts to lose a good fren which i do get emotional over it. =(

2009-03-11T23:47:00.002+08:00

work is so so routine. everyday i come back from is so tiring. i just feel like slping and forgetting bout dinner. but just cant be it la. LOL how can i skip dinner?

everyday life is like wake up, eat, work, eat, work, eat and slp. sibei bo liao sia. and the ppl i working with, are not as fun i thot they shld be. they v serious when comes to work. so sian. stuck in a room, facing 4 walls.

gt attachment means not much time for fun sia. this week is the 2nd week alr. 5 more weeks onli!!! MUST ENDURE!!

friday go PARTY liao!!! yeah!!! it's francis bdae...

2009-03-09T00:45:00.002+08:00

Helo!! its been loong since i blog i guess. haha.

my grandpa was cremated on 21st feb. had a freaking SOM paper on that oso. so shitty la. was pretty hun when i gt back to the wake so i had a pac of noodles first. a few moments later, i see my grandma crying alr, and soon most started. as usual my aunt cried super loudly. that contribute to the saddness. but i still can tahan la. i cant fall u see, i need to be there to support them. if all falls den who support? seen my grandpa for the last time and we proceeded to mandai crematorium. yes of course it was a sad moment for all. tears weeping. sending him the last road. we even see him goin in cremation. all started to call out for my grandpa. my dad broke down eventually. yesh, it was so sad to see him break down. i was proud of myself, i only drop tears. haha. i know its lame. until now, the family still misses him alot. hopefully he is able to appear in each and everyone dreams to tell him/her that he is happily living now.
Ye ye, i love u.......

so like all poly students, i finished my exams with blessings from my grandpa. haha. a GPA 3.0 would be nice alr. ended papers on a thurs and wooo, dashed out of the exam hall at speed of lightning coz it was freezing inside. and damn excited coz its the end!! hahah. so the clique as usual go to marina for our buffet. its so much like a tradition alr. since year 1 sem 1 till now. had suki yaki this time instead of our usual seoul garden. haha. think suki yaki had a wider variety of food compared to seoul garden. saw charissa as well with her own frens. both grps had a bdae boy/gal inside. haha. we gave a surprise to junkai coz it was his bdae. and how can a bdae call a bdae when there is no cake and bdae song?? haha. although he didnt wan a cake but we still bought him a slice. from secret recipe OK! so shiok la the cake. hahah. we managed to surprise him though. so having a 'million dollar smile', quoted from des, he willingly took the cake and snap pictures with the clique. after the dinner, he treated us to drinks at ritz lounge. a freaking 6star hotel la. haha. super nice, toilet oso superb. haha. dang, i wish i m that rich to hav drinks that everyday with frens. nice place nice money oso. haha. 5 drinks cost a whopping 144bucks. its SGD!! not RINGGIT. hahaha.

third thing is that i having my attachment. yes stupid attachment that pays onli 440 a month. freaking govt stat board. pay so little yet expects so much from us. i m working at CAAS, changi aiport there, yes it is near to my hse. there is another intake of TP students soon also. gt caught slping the 2nd day. haha. coz it was damn bored, not much task yet. so i m suppose to take initiative to ask for 'trouble'/work, instead of them assigning tasks to us. haha. but still ok la. hope the rest of the attachment can cruise thru safely, coz i just needed a pass for this. all i had to do is go there in the morning and do wat i told to do. i dun wanna do extra work la, unlike SP , they have a grade. so prolly they must do more work to earn an A for their attachment. for NP, its a pass or fail onli. so i might as well be smarter and go thru it easily rite?? haha. i m in finance dept, and there is only like 2 pretty OLs. so little la. i expected more. most are married 'aunties', aunties are classified as 30 and above. haha. luckily 1 of my team member,eng kian, is from PRSS. so i at least know someone. and another gal, liqing, also in my team...

oh well, i'll blog till here. prolly there is more abt attachment next time. its 1.12am in the morning and i nid to wake up at 6.45am to go work. tml another tired day. haha.

nites everyone.

2009-02-16T22:54:00.002+08:00

Hi, I m here to blog again!!

This time is sumthing sad as well. i was Lonely on valentine's. so sad rite?? haha.

2nd thing is My Grandpa left earth on 15/02/09. I see him in heaven though. missing him deeply and dearly. hope he can blessed my exams cruise thru smoothly also. hehehe.
anything msg me... be out out for days...

2009-02-12T01:53:00.002+08:00

here i am staring at sumthing that is almost a yr old. thinking back on those days when i met her, held her hands, our first kiss and receiving my v day pressie. v day is coming soon and it seems like D day to me. haiz. i haven touch the pressie for a long time, nv used it once at all. only took out to tk a look at it and place it back there. i still rmb where i gt the pressie, it still linger vividly in my mind. it had passed for a year. now i dun think i would use it alr. dun have the chance to use it as well as cant bear to even touch it. tears might just flow like the niagara falls. v day is coming soon, and probably will have a lonely valentine *hint hint*. she's obviously not my first but probably be my last. oh well. here i m dwelling on the past. i din post the pic last year. but the pressie is really useful and meaningful. just regret that we din used it when we were tgt. all my fault for nt wanting to dirty it.

lynnie, I m shouting out to you!! i have a weight in my little heart too :(
come and heal me, sister Lynnie. hahahahahahaha. i suppose that whats u call in ur catholic church. prolly u have a valentine, unlike me.......

May all have a happy Valentine's!!!

maybe i shall call out to Father Valentine to help rather than sister Lynnie :)

2009-02-10T09:16:00.003+08:00

OMG!! i had a dream or shld i say nightmare??
i dreamt my son is blind, deaf and dumb. OMG la. so scary. i wonder why i would dream of this oso.
what if i really had a son like this?? how how how??
would u keep him???

2009-02-09T23:05:00.002+08:00

it's been way long since i blog. so some main things that happen.

CNY just passed not long. and today is the 15th of lunar month means the end is just few more mins. so CNY is surely house visiting and collecting ang baos.

this week is oso the study break week. and i have 2 weeks of that. so shiok. haha. exams commencing on the 21st feb and end on 26th feb. rest like 3 days and i m goin to work. haha. I M PROUD TO SAY I M GOIN AIRPORT TO WORK!! haha. its so bloody near my place. and i m working for the state. the company is Civil Aviation Authority of Singapore. haha. shortform CAAS. den hopefully my exams can cruise thru easily as i wanna get out of town to go BINTAN!!! i wanna go holidays!! this is the part where most student hope for. i guess.

i have pretty much good time in sch. haha. this is one of the best term i guess. haha.

2009-01-27T09:28:00.005+08:00

CNY is gr8 except that i think i having some indigestion coz i load too much food at one go. LOL. so feeling kinda shit. haha.
nvrtheless, i received ang baos, visited my relatives and cousins for whom i met just like once a year unless there is special occasion. haha

i m gonna put up some photos of my poly reunion dinner. take a look.

Ending with a group picture of the day...........

2009-01-24T10:47:00.002+08:00

CNY is coming in like 2 days time? haha. so happy la..... can wear new clothes, wear new shoes, wear watever new. =.=

so here i wish all a HAPPY CNY!! GONG XI FA CAI, WAN SHI RU YI!!!
Ang Bao take many many..

lastly, i love u all!!! hahahahaha.

2009-01-19T23:09:00.002+08:00

i made a smile to her today, and IT'S A MILESTONE IN MY LIFE. =.=

des said it is. i just take it as it is lor. no matter wat, i SMILE at u!! u dun go and talk talk alr!!!

2009-01-18T15:59:00.000+08:00

haiz, life is so wtf..

2009-01-16T23:30:00.003+08:00

This post is gonna be a gossip post. i jus dun understand what on earth are these ppl thinking. why on earth must I be SOCIALBLE?? is there a must to say 'HI' to people i dun really know?? if u think i shld be sociable, den why dun u come approach me?? i may appear fierce? or appear like dunno wat? but in class u shld have seen the cheerful me. wat a joke!! go and tell my fren about me. come on la, u how old alr!! gt anything just tell me in the face la!!!
my fren, u know who u are, u better dun cock itchy and go jio her. i wun be frens with u anymore if it happens. so many gals, go jio others la except her and her fren though she just break.

ARGH!! cant stand these kind of people. i have my own freedom rite!! i wan say hi or bye or dun even wanna care about u is my freedom. ok!

i dun even know why there is this kind of ppl living in the earth. girls are sensitive creatures.

Happy birthday to Elynn Chia Yilin, sounds wierd
u are officially 19 in like half hr time. so old so old. haha. and u haven gt ur car license yet la!! 1 yr alr sia!!! slowpoke leh u...
and yilin, u cheated my feelings. gt so excited when u say can go ur hse have CNY gathering but in the end, cancelled. haiz.一場歡喜一場空.

oh well, i had enough of ranting. v tired to rant so much also. still that sentence i dunno why this kinda people live on earth. hahahahah. u might find out and u might not..

projects deadlines reaching soon. OMG!! haven even touch abit. so dead. so so dead. bless me.. =))

2009-01-15T23:03:00.002+08:00

time is really passing very fast. i wish i could bend time so i can get the time to relax. although i may appear nonchalent to stuffs in school, but actually i am NOT!! i get so stressed up that i dun wanna face the reality(projects). hahaha. i m pretty tired this week that i purposely skip work. i really dun wanna do this but i just get too tired. i felt awful to do this to them actually. they may really lack manpower and here i am takin a nap while they do extra work. I M A BADDY!!

on a lighter note, bernard had passed his FTT with 1 attempt considering that he needed 4 attempt to pass his BTT!! wth rite... FEELING HAPPY FOR HIM! and another fren, nic, passed his motor TP today. worth celebrating for. hahahaha. coz he had been my pillion for years. i ride a bicycle. now finally he gt his liscense. wait for him to get a bike and i would become his pillion. so shiok.

i had took bike rides before for years too. that was when my grandfather used to send me home on his bike. so i basically like the feel of wind blowing against my face. it cooling in the night but not in the day. i hate it when it gets v hot in the afternoon. the rays will just burn right thru u.

wonder when i will get my car license?? i started driving today!! wooo.

2009-01-03T14:52:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone!!
as we move on to 2009. most will be pondering what u did during 2008. and i say' forget abt 2008 and move on to 2009, life isnt abt looking back. u look straight and walk straight. u are wasting time pondering stuffs that had happen.' no matter wat u do during 2008 doesnt matter in 2009. it is a whole new life for me and for everyone.
My New Year resolutions:
1) stick to my new year resolutions
2) transform yvonne(lynnie, u would help me, wun you? hahaha)
3) no more procastination

i m a v simple person so i'll just have 3 resolution. thinking 3 is easy? i dun tink so. haha. no.2 is pretty hard. no.3 still ok la.

take care people. Party hard!!! coz it's 2009!!! =.=

2009-01-03T14:14:00.007+08:00

This is a pretty late post. It's last year post. On xinying bdae, the gals went to surprise her in the morning. and gave her pretty pajamas. a pity i dun have those pics. haha.
den went on to catch 'YES MAN'. damn hilarious. haha. worth it to watch. but think again, comedies wun be intact in your head for long, rather meaningful and slow movies do.
had an early dinner at sumo house amk. den off to our destination!!
THE NIGHT SAFARI!!!! PICTURES GALORE!

with the 8 of them, life will never be boring.

HAPPY BELATED Birthday Xin Ying...

Actually i haven been to NS for my life. this is the first time and hope it wun be the last. maybe NS really isnt as fun as Zoo. many would rather go to zoo actually. at least u get to see them moving about. in NS, they are slping, most animals that we wanna see. what a joke. nocturnal animals are suppose to slp in the day right?? A nice experience i must say. so good so good.

and i read a mag saying that there is a zoo in the philipines that allow you to feed the tigers!! wooo. this is how it goes. u are seated in a fenced vehicle, named tiger car, den they will go in to the tiger enclosure. u are like centimeters from them. for $6, u are able to feed them. u open a opening by the side of the fence and throw out the meat, if not u hold the meat let the tiger come to u and bite it off. it really scary but its damn exciting. hahaha i wanna go man!!!

christmas eve and new year eve i celebrated with my boyfs. haha.

drink drank drunk!! weeee...

2008-12-22T13:04:00.002+08:00

The pics after MY COMMON TEST!! its late by a week alr. my sincere apologies.

This is the signature pose by the GUYS!!
Desmond wanna act cool. LOL.

Walking on the way to esplanade.

A PIMP with 6 women.

This is wat we had after common test.
Our traditional seoul garden BUFFET!!!!

2008-12-12T04:35:00.004+08:00

it's been pretty long since i blog. well, it's becoz i dun see the nid to blog actually or no mood. guess it's time to update my life to my frens. haha.

u see, about 1 1/2 mth ago i didnt blog. u think there are alot of things to blog about rite?? haha, u are half correct onli.

as u know la, sch will always be sch. n my sch life is just about attending tutorials, lectures and making fun of each other esp desmond's moles. gt quite sick of sch life esp when it's so far also. i met lesser of my neighbour suddenly. lol. den i just go to sch myself. so bored so bored. i onli gt lynnie to go sch with but now our timetable abit different so also din really meet to go sch tgt.

so for now, i passed my btt n ftt alr. time to take the wheels. waiting it for so long alr.

recently i have my exams. my first paper was accounting, it was a tricky paper. i gt tricked like here and there. made me go in circles. damn it. secoond paper was on tuesday, it was SOM, the most unconfident paper i sa so far. coz i think i went to party on sunday that i lost my interest in studies. last paper was thursday. my most confident paper. coz i put in the most effort. haha, but i was out since 7pm to 12am and i started studying at 1am. lol. i m crazy. pretty sad that the paper din come out what i really focused on. so my holidays officially start at 10am.

went to seoul garden and eat my hearts out. we're talking bout quantity here. and i think i cant eat that much alr. so sad la. it will be a waste of money this way. took pictures here n there. will upload when i gt all of it. lol. there are goin to be some editing here n there la so u all shall wait. lol.

holidays are here and i m gonna make full use of it to build my reserves as well as knowledge. there are oso projects to be done also. deadlines are like when sch reopens. can say long can say short. 3weeks can do alot of things if u planned what to do, if not some would just rot at hm wasting own time.

heard a phrase before that you shld be happy if u think that the person whom u break up with doesnt suit you. but wun u even feel abit of unhappiness? that u once had feelings for?? cancerians will always be cancerians. i just couldnt escape it. haiz. but anyway, my point is I'm lovin the way it is now. dun wanna waste time pondering over something that has no meaning at all. easy come easy go. thats me. =D

exams are over, holidays are ringing. so just chill out yo. i've gt christmas and new year to celebrate. i've gt many places in mind that i wanna go. would you be dere?? so that i can see u, touch u, feel u, hold u???

ps: pls dun be sad. let it go pls....

pics from the airport with sec frens(few hrs b4 my exam)

i like this pretty much. isnt it nice??
any pictures with me are always so nice.
this is what i call self-confidence. LOL.
lynnie will say i m bimbotic.
"whatever la whatever"
quote from desmond.
hehehehehe. so long everyone!!!

2008-11-13T06:04:00.002+08:00

everyday is a HAPPY day for me...
sch is such a nice place to be. laughter all ard.. desmond woo tak ming is like a toy for us to play. the rest keep disturbing him. lol. there are always some things that we can joke about tak ming. like his chinese name we can alr joke abt it non-stop. really non-stop.. (:

at hm, watch ellen at 530pm, den dota at 6plus, 7pm watch 'ten brothers', 8pm do sai, den slack ard till 10pm for another show. see my life is so Organised lor. gt timetable for after class. haha.

now is 612am. damn early sia, u know why? coz i gt class at bloody 8am la!!! wth!! but its french la so i dun mind. i love french! nt really oso but jus wanna learn it. so i can go france and haolian!!

i goin off to sch now!! ciao!!!

ps:i had a dream today!! quite wierd dream.

2008-11-10T22:46:00.002+08:00

oh gosh! wat a weekend with my shopping!! hahaha. its like goin to heaven. a shopping paradise.

i haven been blogging as well as shopping for a long while. it's pretty sad ya?

sch is still goin on fine, but starting to feel the tension coz exams are nearing and projects piling up. haiz. sch sch sch. always giveing me headaches.

really nth exciting to blog about.

2008-11-03T00:05:00.008+08:00

As promised, pics from Lynnie bdae:

The Bdae cake

this is the backview of lynnie
"And I'm Punked"

The surprise we had for her

Lynnie with my sch mates

At clark quay, with 'lucifer'

with an ugly freak

A nice grp pic

Desmond's eyes are always closed!!

Yilin n Lynnie

Me and des gay-ing
I m a DESPERADO!!

i was the extra in this pic actually

Bdae gal with jun kai

that's me with bdae gal

Forever with eyes CLOSED

Cry me a river! haha
she was toooo touched by our effort

what is jun kai looking at?!
Must be the cake too tempting!!! hahaha.

2008-11-02T13:03:00.002+08:00

WHOA! i din blog for almost half the month. haha. thats v long. pretty mundane life coz i was working my shit out coz i thot of goin to hk, but unfortunately due to financial constraints, i had to withdraw from the trip. DAMN! but nevertheless, i still hoped to go overseas with frens soon, probably next yr. from now save till then, shld be enough. oh well.

life is just school, work and zouk. haha. first 2 wks went to zouk, with the same frens. hearing new songs but seeing the same ppl, haha. school life is still alrite being with the same clique since yr1. so its still as fun!

31 oct, it was LYNNIE bdae. so we went to clark quay to celebrate for her. lol. she was blindfolded and was so afraid coz xinying keep saying they were in a horror house. that freak her out. all in all, the plan/surprise we had for her is quite a success!!! she was so touched that she cried for like 5 mins la!! wth!! so the candles were burning and there she is still weeping away. lol. i haven gt the pics yet. will post it online when i gt it asap.

so for now, that's all.

ciao!!

2008-10-19T23:46:00.002+08:00

weeeee 1 week of school just passed like that.
worked today. quite tired after work. the after effects of clubbing is still lingering in my mind. haha. tequila shots are power sia. down 2 shots and it effect almost within 2mins. haha. i felt like i was 50kg la. i m seriously damn light. powerful sia. the effects almost cost me nt to work. haha. but i still went in the end after i took a shower and become more alert.

during work, i saw fazil and meifong. haha. den suddenly i saw fazil mum n brother. haha. fazil's mum din go disturb them la but took a peep at them. i looked from a far, the scene is totally hilarious. i laugh to myself la non-stop for quite awhile and coz i dun think my colleagues will get the joke so din tell them. haha.

i wont go hm without u!!!!

2008-10-19T05:40:00.003+08:00

Hello!!! I m back to blog once again. haha.

this week of school is pretty awesome with the first day of school celebrating desmond bdae. haha. we went to eat some buffet in suntec convention and it's freaking cheap. really dirt cheap. haha. i had soccer with co as well on friday. haha

oh ya, on thurs i had an IS module which is french. so i m learning how to speak french now! haha. Je m'appelle Philson Poon. LOL. cool sia. and pretty lots of ppl i know in the class so its not totally NEW ppl.

i had thru the week and i believe i can still cont to work thru the upcoming months. i needa save up so i can go HK with frens.

just now, went to zouk. woohoo. the last part of the of session, there is one FREAKING hot gal dancing with me la. haha. the song was "Wont go home w/o u" it is so freaking cool. the feeling is damn shiok. haha. and she is stunning. unfortunately older but i still like her! hahaha. probably i m going again!!! ahhh!!! so damn shiok la.
anyone interested??
msg me!!! at 99975638

ciao!!!(this is spainsh)

2008-10-12T23:18:00.002+08:00

TML IS THE OFFICIAL START OF SCHOOL and OFFICIAL START OF 2ND SEM....

well well, my schedule will really be packed like hell when school starts.

something saddens me today. it really feels like a very fictitious story but no doubt its true. it somehow depicts the story of "A Walk to Remmber". though there are differences. how i wish the ending would be good one, a happy one, a one that calls for joy.

when u totally cant do anything to help ur beloved/someone u love, do u feel helpless?? would u feel that u are one useless piece of ****? why is life isnt that simple as when u are young? the world is totally complicated. i m getting of here!!!
Love, when u longed to, it will never happen. but the irony is when lose hope on love, it just appears out of nowhere. dun u think so?? its very magical when u have it but feels really sad when u lose it. sigh...

and it reminds me of you... the many weeks of w/o you. it just struck me hard in the head. damn!!!

and i tink i m changing my middle name to CULLEN!

It is of Irish and Gaelic origin, and its meaning is "good-looking lad; handsome"
source: thinkbabynames.com

Mandy moore: Only Hope
I pray to be only yours.
I know now you're my only hope
I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.

Mandy moore: Cry
I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....

2008-10-11T13:16:00.006+08:00

And pictures it shall be. haha.
these pics are from last sat when i went to sentosa with some BFFs(like so gay man) and celebrating a birthday at night.

At siloso beach with co.
finish playing and off we go to have dinner.
Uh Ah, u must be thinking we had mac for dinner but nope,

we ate the food court ard harbourfront. haha. this is where

we slacked after that. LOL.

on the way back, damn shag

see it, its RAFFLES HOTEL cake, mind you!!! haha.

drink, drank, drunk

actually, the cake is abit smashed due to bad-handling
but it still pleases the birthday boy.

a toast to the birthday boy and to our frenship.
May it last forever.

ooops, wang xu is MISSING. HAHA, chill man.
he was the cameraman.

this time, the birthday boy was the cameraman. and poof,
wang xu appeared again. his face is literally the same colour as the bricks.
hahahhahahah.

THE END
(for saturday that is)

school starting next week and there i go. goin to sch everyday via the shuttlebus and back hm with lynnie and desmond on 154. den 5 back to hm. with sch, its routine everyday. its v mundane but no doubt sch will be fun with classmates really unknown. but i dun really look forward to that. coz as ALL MY GUY FRENS IN THE LECTURE GROUP WOULD SAY "THIS LECTURE GT NO CHIO BUs". my grouping for most modules are alr formed before sch starts. haha.

first things first, i need to pack my study table. den print my leture notes and tutorials. sian.

2008-10-08T07:13:00.002+08:00

been really long didnt blog alr. nth special events happened la. been slogging my guts out at work. and i celebrated fazil bdae on the monday. unfortunately, when i was reaching there, they were goin off soon. luckily gt my sayang and others. we slacked till bout 2am den we left. they went to farhan hse to stay, and me? i cab hm lor. haha.

i think my mission is accomplished alr. it has been a gr8 week and school starting soon. and i m gonna be energetic once more. hols are good but when too long, it gets bored alr. haha.

2008-10-04T02:08:00.002+08:00

been really enjoyin this few days. haha. i recently bought a standing lamp from ikea as well to start my bedtime reading habit but unfortunately, i haven been reading coz i reach hm ard 6am and am really tired to read on. but in the long run sure will read the book.

my routine for these days are, after work den go eat supper or slack thru the night. and i work till like 10pm that kinda thing so i go out after that.

and i just gt back hm and i abit drunk. haha. cool man. ok la, when u vomit its nt that cool. haha. i jus down a bowl of 'you mian' and 1 chicken wing. so if i vomit, there is something to 'u-know'. haha. tgt with frens u can really let ur guard down without scaring anything. i heard the most ugly comments about ppl. haha. it just so funny. and i laugh it thru. hahahahah.

ok, enough talk i goin to slp soon. cant tk it anymore. see ya soon!!!!

2008-09-29T03:23:00.002+08:00

been bz with work these days. shit, i see no free time in my coming week. haiz. need to work hard hard coz nt enough ppl as it is hari raya soon. den malays all gt hse visiting so there is short of malays in the store. all chinese need to work. sibeh sian.

Mission Happy lonewolf
guess i am more or less forgetting it le. coz i work nowadays and am to shag to even think things. so guess work is good for health. it helps me to recover and i oso earn some money(actually it's v little onli), 1 stone kill 2 birds. how clever can i be?? haha. Philson ah Philson, u are smartest in the world, nt even Bill Gates can win ur intelligence. haha.

today score:
100/100 FULL MARKS. wooohoooooooooooooooo
i will cont this way. hehehehehe. wish me luck. coz i gt too many things on hand that requires luck. when i ran out of luck, its doomsday!!! ARGH!!!! HELP ME!! juz kidding~~

the winner takes it all
the winner takes it all

2008-09-27T02:40:00.002+08:00

Work again today. i tell man, i've been having insomia for 2 days straight. i couldnt get to slp la, i really dunno why. its very terrible!! if i had no work, probably it is ok but i gt work in the morning. 2 days i slept at 830pm, but will wake up at 1230am den i cant fall back to slp. sibei pek chek sia. i try to fall aslp again but now i feel hungry den cant get to slp coz the stomach is damn wierd. wa piang eh, i no choice lor. need to ransack my kitchen for food. and i found OREO biscuits. haha. at least it settles my hunger. And i gt a pair of adidas slippers. Shiok sia!! but unfortunately nt the pattern i like. so sad. i went there 2 days ago, they still have the size i wan. but 2 days ltr, NO MORE!!!! meaning i need to settle for another design coz the other shops are damn out of the way. i feel happy but oso abit disappointed.

Mission Happy lonewolf
i m happy today coz i earned $120 for 2 days of work which means i can start shopping. i think ever since i start this mission, i've been thinking lesser of her. i din really miss her nowadays. but when i m alone, i let my imagination run wild. memories with her flowed back bit by bit. be it lying on my bed, sitting down on the sofa or even goin to east point. now i m alone walking ard east point(coz its the nearest shopping center). we had alot of memories there and they are sweet too. =) i started this mission is remind myself that she is alr gone for good so i can forget her totally. i want to remind myself that she is just a fren of mine not a lover. People may think that i m emo-ing down here or watsoever but i m NOT!! haha. i just dun wan to bottle up my feelings. i m nt afraid to let anyone know how or wat i m feeling right now. but now i thot it thru carefully le, with no chances by my side now, i hope i m better off studying and working. this way, i m something in life. i wan to achieve higher grades. i want to earn more money so i can live more lavishly. haha. i no need to scared whether my hand is tight anot, i no need to care whether my parents will be giving me money anot coz i can earn on my own!!!
today, she vroom past my mind like a F1 racer. easy come easy go.
today score:
95/100

3 things i wan to achieve now:
~higher GPA
~Get car license asap
~Earn money and tk bike license secretly.hehehehe

i have a dream,
a song to sing.....

2008-09-26T01:31:00.002+08:00

once again, i am back to blogging. haha. oh ya, i always wanted to u that i know where that mandy moore song, 'Only Hope', came from. haha. Mandy moore actually sang it in the movie, 'A walk to remember'. haha. i was so so shocked and actually facsinated by her singing and her beauty. she is really stunning. So i finally know the history of the song. I first heard it only when i was in Poly yr 1. It was sung by a gal called Amanda. She dress v lookalike Mandy moore in the show. haha. it was a singing competition la, she din win though. Des and Xinying both took part as well. and this yr, i heard of 'switchfoot'. i din heard of them b4 anywhere. thru des den i knew who they were. haha. but they were also involve in the show la. their soundtracks were damn good. so i did a wiki search on them and found out that switchfoot is a christian band and when the producer/director heard them, he quickly added their songs into the movie. so 'Switchfoot' gradually become famous. =DD soo cool can. haha.

Today, i went to work again. is pretty last min. and i met yy n zy at tm. i went there to get stuffs from zy. accompanied them walk ard, i actually wanted to get a pair of slippers from adidas la. but tm dun have the design i wan thus forget abt it. i goin to city link mall and get it right aft work tml.
i've been slping ard 830 for the past 2 days and i would wake up ard midnight den i couldnt fall aslp again. so i had to slp ard 3-4am. haiz.

Mission Happy Lonewolf
Been really occupied with many things(nt really alot though). i just feel like seeing how u are doin so far. though i know i gt no more chance to get back tgt. i would still be thinking of u. so the most indirect way is to, of course, read ur blog. i've been trying to think less of u alr. i only think of less u when my mind is occupied with stuffs and coz i dun really know how to multi-task very well. so i could do one thing at a time. whenever some1 always complain to me that 'he' always play computer games and ignore 'her', it just reminds me of u. coz i've been doing the exact same thing to u last time. though now i officially can do whatever i want, i just feel that there is no more fun anymore. coz it causes me my relationship. =( memories of how u get mad at me and being jealous of the computer games just flow back instantly. haiz.
and i blog hop ard and saw a phrase which made me play back 'Fall for you' a couple of times. the song is just so sad, so to snap out it, i switched to 'Switchfoot' version of 'Only Hope'. haha. i dun wan songs to bring my mood down. its isnt suppose to be like that.

today score:
70/100 i was that close but i fell back down. haha.

would u cry for me if i die?

2008-09-24T23:31:00.002+08:00

today, it was a rainy day. pretty wet outside the streets. and i wanted to go swimming in the morning la but coz of rain, i didnt go n carry on my beauty slp. haha.
well well, i went to create a a/c with cdc today and i book my BTT on 22 oct. hopefully i can pass. haha. my target is to get license b4 my next bdae. so can happy happy liao. haha. its just hoping onli la.

Mission Happy Lonewolf
Once again, i m happy fellow today. though there are instances i thot of her. but HEY, snap out of it dude. Its the past. today i went shopping with bernard. coz wang xu went out with fren n so like that lor. haha. we went to kinokuniya and i bought another book, titled "Twilight". it says soon to be a major film. so i bought it n see whether nice to read anot. after this, i probably be buying jodi picoult books. i wanna see her series of books n find the essence within. haha. they are fictitious books but they teach u more abt life. its just so cool can. I m into novels now. and i think romance novels are pretty nice to read. u feel so happy, blessed and sweet at times but somehow something gotta happen and u start to tear. haha. "A walk to remember" was that kind of book . with books by my side as well as work and frens and exercise, i just cant make myself feel sad. i m trying to make myself occupied here. i wanna learn alot of things. in this world, there are too many things to learn that u can prolly learn in ur whole life time. so i need to rush to learn as many as possible. who knows 1 day i might just have cancer somewhere and poof, i vanished in to thin air. haha. okokok. there is a possiblity given the food that we eat now. its pretty cancerous n unhealthy but we still gotta eat. lol.

talk so much liao. i think i pass pretty well again. i just need to have my mind occupied with something so i wun be floating away thinking the past. this is my conclusion btw. hahaha.
love shld nt be bleeding, but it shld always be a smiley face. =D
today score:
99/100 =DD

2008-09-23T23:49:00.003+08:00

woke up at 1pm today. haha. and today is Chih Ching(poly fren) 21st bdae. happy bdae to u!! haha. woke up, sibei bo liao sia. so i decided to go for swim, as usual. i love swimming, always do and forever. it just blocks my mind from thinking anything. i just wanna keep goin forever till my muscle cant tk it. haha.

"Mission Happy Lonewolf"
today, i did something that i love which is swimming so din thought of her. it was a pretty gd start for the day i guess. and i oso ogle at girls while i was tanning. haha. ok, its nt v ethical. lol. but i m guy for god sake. i read a book while tanning today. haha. i finally finished "A walk to remember", it was a pretty sad story. haiz. but she is optimistic even though she was dying. and they gt MARRIED!!! wow man. it was nt expected by me la. 'Landon' was so courageous. the book taught me abt the bible oso. Like every other religion, God have their plans for everyone. and it is nt for you to go and find out. you will get it eventually.

A passage from Corinthians
'Jamie' wanted this passage to be read during her wedding. its is so so true.
('Jamie' always like to read the bible)
Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes.
If it ever happens to me, i will believe that the world has miracles. haha. it happened in the book and so 'Landon' believes in miracles.

reading this book made my life seems so much better now. for once, i can say i nvr felt this kinda gr8 love b4. therefore, i will seek till i found one and it will be my last. i swear.

i m happy today!! so mission accomplished today. happy me. =DD

today score:
98/100 =)) flying colours for 2nd assignment

2008-09-22T15:18:00.002+08:00

I have a new mission in life. Its called "Mission Happy Lonewolf"
tell u more about this mission, k?? everynight b4 i slp i would blog how much i m recovering from my LT illness. i would give myself some marks to see if i had passed.

REWIND!!!!
last week, i went to macau n came back on the 16th. i v lazy to blog bout that as well as lazy to post pics. haha. i dunno why.
on the 17th, i had to select my class timetable n i got in the same with some of my frens. we keep splitting up. damn shittty.
On the 18th, i had class chalet. haha. till 20th. n i practically gt work right after that la. its on a Sat n pretty last min.
so thats all for the whole week. it v fulfillin n packed. haha. i love this week but i dun think can have similar weeks again. haha.

Back to Mission Happy Lonewolf
Today i watched the hk drama serial, the show keeps goin ard one of the relationships. n so so, i thot of her again, though her face in my memory is slighty blurred. i cant forget abt her coz i cant find feelings for other ppl. when facing normal girls, i jus dun have that kind of feelings i have for her. its just so DIFFERENT. n i dun wanna be a bastard to just find a substitute for her. as i m writing this post, i once again thought of the past memories with her. no doubt it will stay with me forever as there are the happiest times in my 18 years of age. ok, people will say i dun care about frens. LOL. but i actually care alot. i dun think life shld just be onli btw 2person n no frens. i wun give up frens coz of a gal n contradicting myself, i wun give up a gal coz of frens. though galfren would meant a higher place in my heart. so this is the heartbreaking part.
next, the happier side of me.
i went to have supper with wx, nic and bernard. we've been hanging out quite often which is good i guess. at least we talked some rubbish that actually strenghten our frenship. haha. n we know each other secrets too. ok, nt too much secrets but at least knowing each others' life.

today score:
50/100 =) keep working dude. u pass ur first assignment.

2008-09-14T04:38:00.001+08:00

out of town!! yesh man!!! from 14-16 sept

had hearty talk with frens today. i just love such talks. its pretty cool. how many could actually sit down tgt and trash all the shyt out. haha. its pure FUN!!!

nong nong ago

2008-09-11T16:41:00.004+08:00

"nong nong ago, nong nong ago. nong ago~~~"

that will be wat i would say if i m goin to tk plane the 2nd time. i believe that my 2nd time on the plane would be either during NS or when i could get into uni or even when i come out to work and pay for my own tix.

bought mooncakes from tm. the mooncakes are mostly alcoholic. its damn nice!! haha.

i WANNA get the D24 durian paste mooncake from goodwood park hotel la!!! always OOS. sibei sibei DULAN. they say stocks come at 11am. today i go there at 1150, OOS!!! like wth can. i think they produce like onli 10 boxes there. seriously damn sian.

dun wan to rant anymore alr la. dulan goodwood park. tml go there early line up. haha.

i miss my frens.

n i oso miss u too.

2008-09-08T21:32:00.002+08:00

woooo. the real hols start this week!!! haha. so excited, so looking forward to this week n next week. but after that it's back to normal life again. haiz. but oh come on, i goin to a new work place(hopefully) to work. i dun think i goin to do service line again. its tiring man. haha.

now i goin out to celebrate yew kai birthday at chalet. see u all again.

cheers

Happy Birthday to AMANDA!!!

keep rollin'

2008-09-07T02:48:00.002+08:00

work work work finally i gt my rest on the sunday. Yesh!! been eating mac for the whole week la, guess i gain alot of weight. need to exercise again le but this few days gt no time leh. next week working again, den hopefully can go out for like a day den i goin overseas le!! yesh!!! i m goin to MACAU. goin to casinos n play man. shiok shiok. My first time to go overseas n first time to go in to the casino. One day i must go Las Vegas n play their casinos. So Bangkok, next time wait for them to settle down den go again ba. HAIZ. thot could have a shopping trip but a pity man. NVM!!
next week, my whole week is pack with events. i gt 2 chalets concurrently. haha. 8-10, 10-11 or 12. first chalet prolly go wun stay overnight. 2nd chalet sure overnight plus booze all night long, confirm drink till drop. i haven got that kinda feeling yet of being blackout. haha. shld i try?? lol.

i gt a shoppin list to buy. since its my first time out overseas, i nid to get alot of stuff. prolly a luggage. n some necessities. hehe. i m so so excited la. first time sit plane, what an experience. i like so kampong sia. haha. damn paiseh la. but nonetheless, i m glad i m able to sit on a plane. it's just my wish.

so i celebrated my grandpa bdae on sat at some rubbish restaurant. hahaha. food is rubbish dere, damn different from last time we ate there. wanted to try this new place but not up to expectation. so nth much to elaborate about this oso. but coincidentally, there's another bdae goin on as well. so we compete with them who sang the loudest. haha. we were totally outnumber but we sang louder. with the birth of my baby cousin, there seems to be more attention on him, but no doubt it's always like this with adults. haha. everyone would wait impatiently for his arrival. LOL. den take turns to carry him ard.

so thats about it lor.

how i wish i could turn back time

Cant get over it

2008-09-05T02:18:00.003+08:00

so big coz yuye complain cant see. haha. yuye now can see rite??
been workin for so long, i suddenly felt tired. i dunno wat to do after work and before work. work at mac is damn slack, just that the legs gt tired after standing for pretty long hours. work is fun(filled with laughter) n ya, not bad though. today i met sayang n fazil n his gf. his gf went super early la. fazil was damn late, sayang was later. they went off ard 1030pm. haiz, nvr wait for me. haha. i end at 11. i wanna get some cash for my chalet so i worked. but seriously if i nvr work, i willl just go swim everyday, tour ard tm everyday n just end my day like some useless freak. i couldnt stay at hm at all. i wanna go out, but just that no one to go out with. its the holidays n i m actually wasting time. i rather i go back to school n have real fun!! i miss SCHOOL!! u know like after a few days of really rotting at hm, u wished u were in sch at least there is something for u to do. haiz. when i go sch, i wish it was holidays. when i have my holidays, i wished i were in sch. wth!! wats wrong with me man. i cant get my mentality correct.

wednesday, i worked as usual. till 710pm? i rushed hm, sat down on my sofa n relax. i watched show. i m goin out again!! i goin to Phuture n to zouk for mambo night. bloody hell, i waited for the bus for 30mins(its more than that)!! n the bus take ard an hr to get there. wa piang, i waited from nt raining to heavy rain. wat the shit la. that bus took its own sweet time. reached there, gt the stamp. all waited for one person. And thats XINYING, as usual late, couldnt gt a stamp for phuture so she had to settle for zouk. apparently we were searching for solutions to let her get that stupid stamp. wasted like an hr at the entrance. i saw danielle, my HRM classmate cum groupmate. this time rnd, theres clement, emily(clement's fren who oso stays in the east), xinying, clover n magdeline(dunno how to spell her name). clover n mag are the first time goin tgt with them. we gt a solution but that didnt go well so in the end, xinying went hm ard 2am. from then, the rest of us jus went phuture n danced thru the night. i like mambo songs, i mean some la. its damn nice with the actions. that mambo king jus memorised all the steps, he's like 'oh my goodness'!! i love phuture music, but ytd mix was nt that good coz i dunno alot of songs. those are the earlier part of the night. LOL. when reached 2am, thats the climax la!! woohooo. nice songs came out, so the mood starts to get right. hehehehe. u practically party all out n seems like the saddness, worries n watsoever are gone. u are in the world of ur own with ur frens. its damn shiok. its just like a very sweet dream, no worries at all. so i think i goin to make it a point to go there like once a month. provided if clement is goin. i've yet to try other clubs. i think when sch starts, people goin there will be lesser le. den left me, clement n emily onli. haiz. saddness.

林峯 - 愛不疚(cantonese song)
收藏在眼眸常徘徊左右
愛猜到沒有
愉快玩笑後能全然退後
你開心就夠

這種感覺太親厚講一千句也不夠
假使講了你聽到後或會走
這種戀愛太罕有不須真正擁有
成全衷心祝福然後就放手

放手放開所有彼此更自由
放手其實我絕非愛得不夠
放手豁出所有還有這個好友
已經已經足夠

遙遠是宇宙靜靜在背後
去看守就夠

這種感覺太親厚講一千句也不夠
即使一剎有過衝動挽你手
這種戀愛太罕有不須真正擁有
成全多捨不得仍然是放手

放手放開所有彼此更自由
放手其實我絕非愛得不夠
放手豁出所有還有這個好友
已經已經足

放手我的牽掛找不到盡頭
放手期望你幸福甚麼都有
也許愛很深厚然而我早看得透
放手至可擁有

i still cant 放手. its been months alr. now i can onli 成全,多捨不得仍然需要放手.
你開心就夠了. 衷心祝福你. =)

2008-09-02T01:53:00.002+08:00

I had cheesecake with wang xu, lee lian and zy on sunday as scheduled. den after that we went to walk ard PS but seems like its so limited la so we walked to orchard. there we cont to walk.
i wanted to go ben sherman to see their polo but unfortunately, its closed for renovation. sad sia.

i will be working for the past few days so i wun be free to go out.

oh and i got a sad msg from my aunt. she's nt goin to bangkok alr, guessed its coz of the chaos dere ba. probably goin to penang or macau. but how i wish can go to hong kong. i m so sad. sad sad sad. if penang den i wun be goin le, there gt nth to walk. if macau, i wan to go casino la!!! haha. den can win some money back. lol.

2008-08-30T02:48:00.002+08:00

today had lunch with my sec classmates. i didnt manage to go sch coz i slept at wangxu's hse n woke up late. we had pizza at tm. after that went to arcade, nvr really play la. but we saw a boy play the basketball machine, he is superb man. he solo-ed n break record over n over again. haha. it's crazy la.
about 3pm den i left that place alr. go hm n watch online drama serials.
went my grandma hse today for dinner coz my mum went out with frens, my father as usual wun be hm till 12am(sometimes 11plus). had curry chicken n baked beans.
den i went hm again at 8pm. waiting for my fren to sms me to go out. but last min no ppl. nvm, i cont to watch drama. den i cooked my supper as well.

It's a pity that i didnt go back to sch to visit teacher, coz its 1 year once onli n yet becos of my laziness..... haix........ damn guilty.

i going to eat chessssssssssseeeecake with ahnielle n co alr.

i've been sun-tanning the past few days thus i became quite dark le. wooohoooo!!!!

i am abit sad. coz of one reason....

2008-08-26T08:20:00.002+08:00

Oh, our Team Singapore is back from Beijing!! and ya, i din attend their celebration. haiz. they invited me la, but i at home watching show la. so nvr go, haha. i know i m bad la. i m big shot ma, so? lol.

I m glad that someone actually gt motivated by me!! haha. I wun say who la. but is actually someone i dun really know. maybe u can say i gt a ulterior motive, but nt those v bad motive.
Ok, to keep u in suspense, i give u readers some clues
1) She is in TP
2) She is a fren of my fren
3) She lives near my place
ok, thats all. go find out if u wan, although i know u all wun go la. haha. just write for fun.

and today i wake up so early la. i prepared my own breakfast. haha. i've got hotdogs, hams, eggs, cheese n bread. its even better that McDonald's Big Breakfast can. and it cost so much cheaper except the fact that i need to cook myself n wash it afterwards.
I m goin to swim with wang xu ltr. so have breakfast first, its good for health ya. =))

i've gt lots of plans for my hols man. haha.

Firstly, its clubbing. i needa find more ppl who go clubs la. search high n low for them. haha.
Secondly, i m goin to Thailand with my aunt, uncle, granny, grandpa and cousin. so wun be in town during 13/09 to 16/09
Thirdly, i m goin to have a poly class chalet from 18-20. haha.
DEN, I M GOIN TO WORK LIKE A COW N EARN SOME PENNY.
before i go club n probably goin LANGKAWI,Msia for SNORKELING!!! U SEE THE WORD?? WOOOOO. it will be with my colleagues from McDonald's. FYI, i've been working there since sec2 but nt a frequent worker coz of the lousy pay.
and the school will start soon after. HAIZ. new semester n probably new class n NEW GOALS being set. haha.

I have got plans for my future. Let me spell it out to you.
See now, i m goin thru poly. if i had known that after poly, i needa study for 3 years for uni, i would opt for JC instead actually. maybe i wun have motivation n start but ya, i will get the motivation somehow. Now i m actually wasting 1 year of my life.
after Poly, would go for NS for 2 years. and i m 22 years old when i finish it. den hopefully, get into uni and another 3 years. wa piang!! nvm. so i will be 25 la!!! so OLD! den i need to work. work alr, starting pay sure v little de. n according to HRM, first stage of career is exploration. so i wun be settled in the job v soon. by the time i settled hopefully onli nid 1 year of exploration. i m 26 alr. by the age of 26, i m goin thru stage 2 of career which is establishment. this is when i will settle down. But govt wan us to PRO-CREATE. i reach 26 but i haven got a gf yet, so how to give birth to so many kids? ok, lets say i gt a gf by uni period, but onli when i reach 26 den i settled down in my career. so how m i suppose to get married without any money thus by the time i save up, its probably 30 alr. and i can say that will be normal for all Singaporeans.

u see, marriage is a v holy thing. and i believe it shud be a once in a lifetime thing onli. if i m nt v convinced that the girl is for me n i m for her den i wun rush into marriage. but like i said, marriage may nt be my kind of thing. so i will think twice.

my future seems quite dark now. i really dunno whether i shud study n work tgt or shud i study everything alr den work.
With a diploma, i probably earn 1500-1800
When reach 22 after NS, i will calculate till 30. so is 8 years x 12mths = 96mths
den 96mth x 1500 = 144,000
But wth a degree, i probably earn 2000-2200
den start from 25 till 30 years old. so is 5 years x 12mths = 60mths
den 60mths x 2000 = 120,000

based on estimation, mathematically, i lost a total of 24,000 for 3 years. in economics terms, its called opportunity cost. i mean of course with a degree u can move further up the ladder n so on. in long term, the latter will benefit more la. but if u wan to get married before the age of 30, will u still choose the latter?? Singapore hor, v headache la. if i m born with a silver spoon, i wun care about thinking so much la. i can live my life thru without worries. as the chinese proverb goes ' 同人不同命'. which means same people ,in general terms, borned with different fate/life. some are born rich while some are born poor. if u compare the Americans to Africans. u see the difference? of course i m not talking bout their colour. haha. but more of their wealth.

So the normal saying goes, Man only fret about 2 things on earth. 1 is money, other is woman as in relationship. so now, maybe i m partly fretting bout woman only. more on money that i m worried about. haha.
pardon me if i say this. girls can just married a rich guy n nth to fret about alr. but in real life, there are many cases of those kind of girls. but but, in the modern world now, girls wanna be independent and it kind of defeats the purpose of guys living on earth. so now, guys n girls are individual beings living on their own planets, mars n venus.
for a guy, both are equally impt to us. we wan girls as well as money. man are greedy animals. period.

and recently, i read bout an article on the sixth C. girls always find guys with 5 'C's. credit card, car, condo, cash and contry club. but most imptly, the sixth C will probably attract girls the most which is.... drums rolls... CHARACTER!!! this is probably the most impt of all the 'C's. do u agree?? imagine a guy with all the 5 'C's but without the sixth, would u still like him?? but on the other hand, imagine the guy with a sixth C but without the 5 'C's, would u still like him??
haha. my arguement are pretty condradicting n complicated.
My point is that we must be rich in all aspects. given that u might have the 5 'C's, u must always have the 6th C as well if not u are still considered poor.
Heres a program: Arts central "Singapore Dreaming" depicts wat i was talking bout the past few mins.

Back to pro-creation. haha. i think this is a v good topic to explore. govt keep giving u money to give birth. If u are a guy, how old can u accept ur gf to be? for me i m ok with +/- 5 years. gf is gf la. but imagine u are gonna marry her, if she is 5 years older than u, she is probably goin to be a v old mother and its dangerous for her to be pregnant at older age. den how ar?? jia lar rite like that. so the best is probably choose a young girl ba. so if u are 30 with u are successful in ur career, u get a girl who is 25-28. i think thats the best age. so if u ask me, for gf the acceptable age would be +/- 5 years and for a wife probably -5 years max.

i m goin out alr. talk bout it ltr. see ya.

2008-08-26T01:10:00.003+08:00

想太多- 李玖哲
你笑着说他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔

我的不安那么沉重
只有你不懂

他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说
我们
不是你和我

是我想太多你总这样说

是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

我想我没有错怪了什么
虽然你不说都是错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多

i have alot of feelings after listening to this song. mixed feelings.

2008-08-25T23:07:00.002+08:00

today is officially the first day of my holidays. haha. quite boring leh. i went to swim again. shiok sia. den walk walk tm n century square. i wanted to buy a story book leh but i cant any book that suit me.
other than swimming, i stayed at home to watched some drama serial. i watched taiwanese 'hot shot' and hong kong 'moonlight resonance'. both are v good shows but a pity they are still on-going in their countries so i cant finish the whole series. so now i watched all which had been uploaded le, sad sad, no more alr. need to wait a couple of days before they upload to the site again.

tts bout all. =DD

2008-08-24T13:39:00.002+08:00

i officially finished my exams n yes!!! Its the holidays for me alr. other POLYs abit sad la. hahaha.
so the day before my last exams, i actually supper with wang xu, nicky, bernard, jacky again till 3plus den we go hm. so after supper we chit chat about alot of things happening. den i went hm to study for my last exam, din slp a wink at all. i power sia. LOL.
exams was really so so la. dun expect much for the marks.
wooohooo, i finish the papers in style!!
went out with polymates to celebrate holidays at marina sqaure, we had cafe cartel. was pretty fun. went arcade after that.

Saturday
woke up at 230 coz yuye called me. haha. she ask me to go out have dinner with pm, zy, nic, desmond, hermi. it was a so call farewell dinner for pm or a mini 4e7 poly gathering. we went swensens at tm to eat and after that to arcade. walk walk ard den i gotta leave alr.
i went to phuture again with francis n co. haha. francis was the tour guide as he brought 3 1st-timer there. haha. Pipop, dunno how to spell la but sounded like that, he had the best night there. haha. some fat girl went over to grind him n they french-ed. haha. like wth. damn disgusting la. lol. pipop dun even know how she looked like. lol. wa piang. can vomit lor. nvm, so after that we went hm straight away. reached hm ard 5. so late. so saturday was a fun-filled day for me ya.

2008-08-21T00:05:00.002+08:00

another day had passed.

i had a hearty chat with several of my frens on tues night. we chatted till 3plus am. it was pretty late but nt all have sch so ya. haha. its quite fun, relaxing n having supper with frens that are close yet seldom meet.

so i woke up at 3pm the next day. lol. i slp damn lot la. den started revising on FMGT. i hate Short term financing n Capital budgeting. they are a pain in the arse. really no doubt bout that.

i m seriously in a holiday mood la. i cant get serious with school lor. i dunno why. its damn shitty la. haha.

MOTIVATE ME!! AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

2008-08-19T01:43:00.002+08:00

I have successfully finished HRM paper. 1 down and 2 more to go.

Fmgt will be at thurs
Cma will be at FRI!!! woooo!! shiok ar!!

Hrm paper was pretty easy except those topics i didnt thoroughly go thru. quite sad to lose those marks la. can achieve higher if i memorise more. oh well, its the past. move on Philson.

2008-08-18T09:52:00.002+08:00

I gt myself a new NAME!!

My middle name will be Esme.

so my full name will be Philson Esme Poon.

Life

2008-08-18T00:05:00.004+08:00

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life.

It goes on.

Robert Frost

About saturday
I went to msia!! for 1 day. haha. it seems normal for any people but not for me becoz i m havin exams on Monday. LOL. i have courage ya. so i went to Tebaru city for jusco shopping center. There is nth much there for me to shop so there is onli eating takin place there. i was suppose to have a sumptous meal there but too bad, the crab restaurant is not open yet!! it hadnt reach 530pm when we went there so goes my crabs!! argh. we settled for another restaurant which serves steamboat in a form of porridge. there is no soup, onli porridge. ordered normal steamboat stuffs. n ate quite full. LOL.
i ate stonegrill and secret recipe too at there. its freaking cheap la. really man. stonegrill ate bout 20bucks, imagine in SG, where gt this kind of price. haha. secret recipe even cheaper, ate a cake n cost onli 4bucks!!!! WOW!!!
so ar, 1 day trip i spent 40bucks onli and inclusive of cab thru n fro. Its freaking CHEAP!!! planning to go another trip to Tioman for snorkeling soon or maybe genting would be not bad. A pity my dad dun allow me to travel to Thailand. IF not it will be BEST!! B-E-S-T!!

so my saturday is spent in JB. COOL!!

sunday will be resting n poof, monday exam.

god bless me. good luck to me!!!

2008-08-17T21:17:00.003+08:00

Woohoo!!

Singapore lost the match against China as expected not that i am a wet blanket but ya...

Singapore still has a silver. Not bad. Kudos to Li, Feng and Wang.
at very least a medal right? 4years later and they will be back at London 2012!!! watch it u guys.

and, Beckham will be at the closing ceremony becoz he will be representing London for the next Olympics with some other athletes.

Closing ceremoney will be as grand as the open ceremony. A must-watch!!

Once again, Congrats to Team Singapore Table-tennis. =DD

2008-08-17T21:03:00.001+08:00

so Korea took a bronze and now i am still watching the match Singapore against Korea.

GO for GOLD SINGAPORE!!

2008-08-16T23:27:00.002+08:00

If u are in a r/s, will treat your family as priority over your partner

the other way round??

Will u break up with ur partner if u both set ur priorities differently?

Do you think it is actually a problem??

2008-08-16T02:31:00.001+08:00

am i a 100% family boy

am i a 100% lover boy

2008-08-16T00:40:00.002+08:00

YEAH!!!

Singapore is in for the FINALS in table tennis.

i tell you, i was practically glued to the tv for 2 n a half hrs la. watched them play. i did not touch my books as a result =(

the first match was a sure win by looking at how Feng played. trashed to the max man.

second match wasnt that good.

den came the dbls and woohoo, Li and Wang won it

but Wang lost it in the singles

But Feng does it again for SINGAPORE!!!
the pity thing is they are actually from china. so not really pure singaporeans. nt that i trying to ostracize them, get it clear. it's just a pity only.

but at least they do our country proud by ending the olympics medal drought with a secured silver. hope they can do it again and YESH, a GOLD medal for Singapore.

oh well, so thats about it for today.

say yo, yo
say yo, yo
say yo baby yo baby yo, yo baby yo baby yo
i goin to slp alr yo.

gd nite

2008-08-15T02:19:00.002+08:00

today i went to swim!!!
sudden mood to go for swim, u know why??? haha.
i was watching OLYMPICS, saw PHELPS so steady. cool sia. den i thot to myself, so long nvr swim alr so maybe ya go for swim. haha.
swam 30laps today. woohoo. so long nvr swim alr. damn shiok la.

studied today as well. onli a mere 2hrs. is damn little la. coz when i wake up its alr noon. den still watch olympics. so started at 1pm. haha. today i tried cadbury boost, its damn sweet coz of the caramel. den i had TANG YUAN(glutinous rice balls) for lunch or maybe brunch? haha.

so after swim, i went to shop shop awhile lor as usual and i bought new shampoo plus VEGGIE. sudden urge of eating oyster veg. LOL. and and i bought honey baked ham. the auntie at NTUC damn good la. she let me try this and that den when i decided on what to buy, she gave one piece of hoey baked ham to eat. she rolled it up and den pass it to me saying that boy u can eat it like that oso, it will taste good too. haha. aunties are always nice, i dunno why. my working place they oso like that. when u make frens with them, they treat u as frens or even their kids. although they do nag a little but they are still nice ppl. coz of that, i nvr left mac. i juz couldnt bear to leave, it's partly the reason.

reach hm, had dinner and wth, dinner was LJS la. i go swim to shed some weight n there i go havin LJS. haha. 30laps gone to waste le. saddness. lol. den after dinner go downstairs to pray. it was the 14th in lunar as well as english too. so it is really coincidental.

well, i watch 'DONT FORGET THE LYRICS', i juz love that show. as the contestant commented,
ITS THE BEST SHOW EVER'. agree with 2 hands n legs held up high. haha.
den cont watching show and poof, i m still watching one currently.

bye bye, see u all again yo.

2008-08-13T18:41:00.005+08:00

EPL start this SATURADAY!!

MANU will ROCK THIS SEASON INSIDE OUT

BEHOLD THE ALMIGHTY MANCHESTER UNITED!!!

and

Lynette will scream when she sees RONALDO!!

hahahahahahaha

2008-08-13T02:00:00.002+08:00

2nd day of the week.

supposed to go raffles city at 10 but cancelled due to my fren havin diarrhoea. so i cont to sleep on my bed and poof when i woke up it was near 1pm. so quickly gt up, fixed lunch, watched some olympics and i went to mac to study again.
somewhat somehow, there are the same ppl studying tgt with me again. so i studied about 2 chaps of HRM today which is pretty little.
went home to eat dinner den i went out to MAC again to meet wx n lend him my lappy coz his is dmged once again. SONY VAIO is so UNRELIABLE.

so thats my day. pretty boring ya.

p/s: l-o-v-e everyone esp u. i juz dun show it only.

2008-08-11T23:49:00.002+08:00

studied today again. it gets really boring man. but nt a choice for me. damn sian

tml goin to study again le. its a must!!!

jiayou ba!!! good luck to all who are having exams.

2008-08-10T23:13:00.002+08:00

"Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder"

Does anyone ponder about this before?

And

"Feelings is in the heart of the beholder"

Do you think they are pretty true?
I think they all coz some people will agree with you and some wont.

But when u have feelings for this person and that person doesnt have that for you so does this provide an answer to my 2nd statement?

2008-08-10T20:11:00.002+08:00

I need courage....

I need confidence....

I want to conduct myself well...

I will start being gentleman from today onwards

2008-08-10T12:51:00.002+08:00

woohoo, went to marina square and saw last part of fireworks with my mac frens. LOL.
nt really cool but still quite la.
den went to stay overnight at tecc mac. played cards till late den wa sian. my frens playing psp den i do nth at there liao. fell aslp at 330am like that den woke up at 4. slack awhile more then i go off hm alr.

signing off,
your ever bubbly n cute Philson Poonie =DD

2008-08-09T00:17:00.003+08:00

i m back hm!!!
catch "THE MUMMY 3" today. found it real cold after the movie. den i had a really cold ice lemon tea that i haven finished it. and pretty lots of popcorn left.
had some light dinner cum supper at din tai fung. tried their SPICY CHILI CRAB XIAO LONG BAO. was pretty good with loads of crab meat inside but but is really not spicy enough. den had trad. xiao long bao too and wanton soup.

i studied today!!! woohooo. wat an accomplishment. most had started studying and so i shld toooo.

so thats my day. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE YO!!!
its NATIONAL DAY ALR.
AND YTD WAS OPENING CEREMONY OF BEIJING OLYMPICS.
wish SINGAPORE all the best for their olympics and do us, Singaporeans, proud.

slp le. tml still gt work in the morning.

signing off,
your ever bubbly n cute Philson Poonie =DD

2008-08-08T11:00:00.002+08:00

我爱过　我才懂

你的寂寞就给我承受换你过更好的生活

其实我比谁都要懦弱

别无所求　彻底忘了我

signing off,
your ever bubbly n cute Philson Poonie =((

2008-08-08T00:11:00.002+08:00

the day just passed again. exams are nearing and i had nt started STUDYING!!! wake up PHIL. time to wake up. nvm. will start tml. OK, Philson is procrastinating again like so many ppl in the world. ITS A HUGE MISTAKE!!!

but still i will start tml. LOL.

so hows my day today??
i played soccer at ard 11am till 1pm and i overstrectched my groin muscle. its is aching and didnt stop aching for even a sec. it feels like the end of the world. OK, juz joking. but today soccer onli 7 ppl include me, that is damn little coz v hard to play full court as we will be tired v fast. so we chose to play half court.
after match, had chicken rice for lunch with them. den went to eat prata again. haha. it was only a KOSONG. nt much coz was pretty full after the chicken rice and some deep fried tofu. Leonard eats damn lot. after the chicken rice, he ate another 2 egg n 1 plain prata. WTS!! maddness man.
after lunch all went hm. hm swt hm. as usual will be tired ma. but i din slp immediately la. mapled for an hr plus. den KO. sweet dreams.

i tell u man, i have been having dreams la. last night i had one, just i nap oso have one. is damn freaky la. and there are similar to an extent. they are all swwwweeeetttt dreams.
hopefully is not "something" playing a joke on me.

oh well, so thats my day.

watched tv in the evening. "DONT FORGET THE LYRICS", it is a damn good show. haha. worth to catch it when u have the time. the host is excellent. haha.
and i watched "THE CONTENDER ASIA" Finale. it was pretty good match b/w the Aussie and Thai. Both are strong but the Thai just took a few blows to make him lie on the ring. AND IT IS ACTUALLY HELD IN OUR KALLANG INDOOR STADIUM LA. din go and watch it was a pity seriously.

so i m tired now. WEEEE tml watching THE MUMMY 3. i wanna see if critics are that true. coz i read up on their views of the movie. THE MUMMY 3 score way way below average.

signing off,
your ever bubbly n cute Philson Poonie =D

2008-08-07T00:12:00.002+08:00

wat a fine day today!!

woke early in the morning preparing to go school.. but but but. in the class cancelled due to some technical issues. so yeah!! stayed at hm whole day. i mapled till lvl high high sia. chiong maple now la. no sch alr.

slp from 1 to 330 again. haha. so i had like super long hours of slp. and this is cool coz during study days i always slp like 5-6 hours. damn little thus always slp on bus to sch and bus to hm.

today went to work again. work work work. so little money. SIANXZXZXZXZ.

and saw alot of bengs and lians. haha.

and and and...

today i saw a shocking news!! a croc is found in the waters of PASIR RIS PARK. this is like so cool can!!!! i wanna go see see the real croc la. no nid pay money den can watch free one. hopefully it isnt caught by tml or wat. any CROCS hunter wanna go tgt??

i've seen on animal planet that time about crocs. they can really eat sia. but when they cant finish, they will put the meat onshore to wait it decomposed so they can eat easier. so thats a flaw for the crocs. crocs wun leave the place until they consumed finish their prey. they will swim ard there to guard their food and eat it when they hungry. they are really long. the one found at pasir ris park was a mere 1m long. but still poses a danger for the public. and there is this old man who spotted it la. and left it alone. but he go another time with his daughter, they saw it again and his daughter shot it on phone. COOL COOL COOL!!!! ITS TOTALLY COOL!!

hopefully it wun swim back to its native country ba.

according to reports, the croc shld be a saltwater species thus will swim in the open sea. so the croc could be from msia, indonesia and some other further place.

this is like the other time when some dolphins came to our country la. but they swam away soon after. think our seawater too dirty alr. sad sad.

ending post alr. so tired. tml PLAYING SOCCER YO!!!

signing off,
your ever bubbly n cute Philson Poonie =D

2008-08-05T23:42:00.002+08:00

ok, i changed my blog song. "Fall for you" by secondhand serenade.
the lyrics are quite related to my life. meaning my r/s, ok. to be specific, previous r/s.

today had another presentation. teacher ar, damn demanding sia. LOL. so u must know the difference between a 'A' and 'AD'. bla bla bla. and so we sort of disappointed her that we arent as good as the other group. ok la, we were quite slack in this project. COZ, my lecturer dun care about the extra stuffs that we wanna do. he just keep telling us to do the basics which is more than enough. But my teacher expects more. so bo bian lor. but overall, we are still v good la. jus that nt as good as other groups in my class.

Today had CMA revision tutorial. done 4 qns onli but took us like 2plus hours.

AND it marks the end of school!!!! YEAH!!! but then again, meaning the exam is nearing and i really need to MUG. MUG MUG MUG. wa sian man. tink probably will spending time studying at mac again.
But no more company le coz fazil have a GF alr. and is a CHINESE. he always fancy chinese gals. wonder if its true that opposite attract (racist sia philson). he had quite a hard time wooing this gal la. LOL. so he must be pretty happy. and dun care about me alr. sad sia. all my study kakis, see the word STUDY? haha. who on earth would have study kakis. people all have makan kakis, mahjong kakis, clubbing kakis and etc. haha. but the study kakis are tgt during the 'O's la. all come down to one place and start mugging. we had fun still. miss those days. now everyone is bz with their own stuffs. no time for their old pals alr.
so must study alone lor. and all most of my poly frens stay so far so wun get to meet up to study de.

met up with a old pal in TM for dinner at cafe cartel. den desserts at swensen's. den we start to chit chat about the swensen's ad. "I am SO goin to swensen's"
haha. its very no link to swensen's lor. dun u think so??
den jalan CS coz she wanna buy hp pouch.
wa piang, today i walk CS and TM and CS and TM. walk till shoulder pain man coz my lappy was in my bag. i was shopping for my working shoes but so sad OOS. den go see my ARMANI specs and Kenneth Cole watch. watch in tm about the same price and ARMANI here is more ex but i believe the lenses here are better than the one at WS. their transition cost like $70. is damn cheap la but i tink oso damn lousy quality. I WAN A PAIR OF TRANSITIONS. but its damn ex for a pair of good quality lens. save save save den wait christmas or chinese new year then buy la. haha.
i was shoppin while waiting for my dear fren to finish her sundae in swensen's. LEG PAIN LEH!!
SEE THIS MY FREN!! u know who u are. LOL.

HOPE MY GOD WILL BLESS ME TO WIN THIS FRIDAY TOTO.
ITS FREAKING 8MIL LA. but mostly is won by a few people la. so maybe 1mil or lesser. but still i think max is 10 ppl lor.

I GT A SECRET KEPT WITHIN MYSELF!! i wun tell it here. haha. jus wanna announce that i gt a secret. OK, i know u wanna throw eggs at me alr. or spit at me. dun pls. its meant to be a secret, i wun divulge it. since it's meant to be a secret, i am the only one who knows it. no one will KNOW!!

most probably watching MUMMY this fri. cool sia. finally can watch. hopefully it is valid till that day. no hiccups pls. i wanna watch it very badly.

ok i m off to slp alr. tml goin sch at 10 to help teacher do research. yupps. so good nite to all. GLHF(good luck have fun)

signing off,
your ever bubbly and cute Philson Poonie =DD

2008-08-05T00:38:00.003+08:00

Hmmm, time to post again..
everynight i would make a point to post even i m shag. but if i really nvr post den i must be damn shag. haha. jus jokin. i tink i will post even though i m damn tired. maybe a picture to show u a thousand words.

so today is a MONDAY. wat a new week. kickstarting the day was CMA revision lecture. den down to our presentation for ECD. done not a bad job i think but hor the teacher always like v bo chap lor. she at dere looking at our report rather than ppt slides. Den her face hor, like damn stern one. seldom smile, so u wun know if u had said the right thing or not. haha. BUT OVERALL IT WAS FINE.

and i juz gt a sad msg from my fren. she had broke up but a mth ago. was pretty sad for her. coz rau my good good fren is a good good gal.

people ar, always got thing no thing also will say ' no feelings la', ' feelings fade la', ' character nt suitable la'. aiyo i listen from show oso listen till sian. real life oso like that. den WTF wanna be in a r/s so impulsively. nt onli u hurt urself(maybe yes maybe no), u hurt ur partner as well. And mostly gals end up being the one getting hurt most of the time.

SO....
SO....
SO....

my conclusion is that get into a really really serious one and thats it. one hit and get married if not continue to be a free person coz u wun get to enjoy that once u are in a r/s.
either way is that u set rules to the other person, meaning if u juz wanna have a gf for the sake of one. inform her/him that u wun commit too much if not thats the end of the r/s. both wun end up hurt and maybe quite happy about it. at least u were once tgt.

i also had this mindset of not getting married. haha. i had a fren, named gary, he's abit gay but ya. haha. he once ask me this qns," are u getting married in the future" or something along that line. i replied i would definitely. he straight away shoot me back, "u mad ar". LOL. so i immediately know his ans to his qns. i was quite certain to get married that time but maybe not now. HAHA. carefree lifestyle w/o liabilities. notice the word LIABILITIES. no matter u are a boy, a gal, a guy, a lady. whatever stage of manhood u are in, as long as u are in a r/s, there are bound to be commitments which are unavoidable. even ah lians n ah bengs do have it but they dunno how to say that in the form of words. like most ah bengs, they have a high lvl of ego thus their ah lians have to conform to their requests or demands( in a more ah beng way). ah lians gt commitment ok!!!
pity them. pity them.

so wat u think of my persperctive in r/s?? haha. i've been thru it, as short as 4days onli and as long as 1 n 1/2 year. i m actually still waiting to break my fren record. ONE FREAKING HR of STEADY... wonder how he does that.
it will be like:

Guy: hello chio bu, i've feelings for u. do u mind being my stead?
Gal : oh. i actually oso have feelings for u la. but i shy shy ma. so dun dare ask u. i always wait for ur smses at night.
Guy: oh really, i thot u dun have any feelings for me. the other time i sms u, u were like so dun wanna chat with me.
Gal : gt meh?? sori abt that lor. but ya, i a little bit like u la. u wan to jio me ar?
Guy: ya. do u wan to be my stead? i know that i know u for maybe just a few days but its the feelings that matter rite??
Gal : ya. thats rite. ok i be ur stead lor but dun tell anyone first. we try out first ok?? i wun tell my frens and u wun tell urs. promise??
Guy: HIPPY!! i promise u!! can i call u dear from now on??
Gal : can la, laogong.

BLA BLA BLA FOR AN HR.

den..........

Guy: dear ar, i tink we gt some character difference leh. i seem to suddenly lost all my feelings for u. shall we break up??
Gal :(dumb-founded) nvr reply sms
2nd sms from Guy
Guy: dear i really v sorry but i tink we really nt suited for each other. lets break up.
Gal : but i really dun wan. i cant bear to leave u. i cant live w/o u.
(super typical for wat a gal would say)
Guy: i have a better person who suit me better. Lets just break up and u sure find another person that suit u better.
Gal : but i really dun wanna leave u

the norm is that the gal would keep pleading with the guy.
and the guy would just ignore the gal and take it as she accepted the break up alr.

The end..
So this is a senario for a 1 HR steady. haha. i v creative rite?? say yes, say yes.

Lesson learnt:
Guys are really a pain in the arse!!!
more consoling sentences
Thats why people always say wat u wan to waste ur tears on a piece of junk. its not worth it.
It's their loss (so in other words, u gain something. at least u can strike of this person from the remaining men out dere)
there are still many many more la. too tired to elaborate.

i m also enlighten.
good frenships can really last longer than r/s thus i wun go and destroy a frenship on purpose.
even though i had many frens with good r/s, i seldom contact them but we can still click well once we meet each other and stuffs.

Ok yes i m referring to u!! u know who u are. u are the onli one in my heart. *puke*
haha. thats the end of my post.

signing off,
your ever bubbly n cute Philson Poonie.

2008-08-04T00:07:00.003+08:00

today is a SUNDAY.

i slept till 11plus. den woke up played maple private server, chiong chiong.
den slp again. HAHA. juz that i gt nth to do ma. though there is actually alot but dun care onli. lol.
den after that went to ehub to eat new york new york. coz east pt n tm n cs eat till sian alr. nth new thus went to ehub. eat liao go white sands walk walk. I WANNA BUY NEW WATCH N SPECS. HAHA. saw a armani specs and kenneth cole watch. sui sia. both total is 600plus. wa piang i faint. but nvrtheless, i will get it by year end. save up n work lor. big hols coming alr so can work. yes yes yes.
went ntuc aft tat, bought some grocery. hm swt hm. haha.

so thats my day lor. wanted to study but dun have the mood to do it. =((

signing off,
your ever bubbly n cute Philson Poonie5

2008-08-03T01:42:00.002+08:00

As u can see, the pic is a 3mth old baby!!
haha. guess who is he??
He is my baby COUSIN. paternal side cousin. haha.
He is damn CUTE la when he laugh.
He laughs when ppl go disturb him. haha.
A pity he is so young. i m 18yrs older than him leh!!! and my brother is 14 years older than him.
HAHA. next time can play ps3 or 4 or 5 already when he grows older. LOL.

So today, i woke up at 11plus after a long night sleep. haha. i think gt 10hrs like that. damn long. but also shiok. den after that watch KC lor. go out to eat ard 2plus at CS soup restaurant. there the stuffs are quite ex. Ate with my mother, grandma and brother. ate till super full lor with 2 bowls of rice. HAHA. AND AND!! i related my grandma to the "MONEY NOT ENOUGH 2" ah ma.
In the movie, the ah ma gt dementia. Den keep asking Ah Hui if he had eaten. Ah Hui said he is full alr. The Ah Ma keep asking lor!! like 6, 7 times. LOL. den Ah Hui give up. He said he nt yet eaten. HAHA. The ah ma replied, see i know u haven eat. wanna bluff me. LOL. u must see then u can feel the funny part la. I say nt funny enough.
Relating to my grandma, she keep asking me to have another bowl of rice after i had my first bowl. den i told her i had enough of rice juz wanna eat the rest of the food. But when the waitress walked pass, she told her to get another bowl of rice for me. HAIZ. 2 bowls of rice leh. damn lot carbo sia.
so i let out a small laughter when i suddenly think of that.

After that, went hm alr. slept for awhile until 8 plus.
Went to my uncle hse to see my cousin.

So practically, whole day is like that lor. Hmmm,nt v fruitful because nvr really do alot of things. like wasted a day like that. Haiz.
Tml will be a better day.

Thought of the day:
Cherished it when its here and not regret after it left.
When u cherished it, even when its gone, u wun regret.

My thought came from my grandpas. Notice the 's'.
My maternal grandpa got a stroke and was bed-ridden since then. Though he gt better after like 2 yrs, but still he is bed-ridden. He couldnt speak properly nor walk at all. He have alot to express but couldnt do it.
My paternal grandpa gt cancer many many years ago due to smoking. He went for chemo and surgery. But the cancer demon came back again one day. He had his lung operated many times. This time is really the end. The doc cant cut anymore of his lungs alr. He can onli go for chemo but seems like there is no effect on those cancerous cells. So he is juz waiting for his time to come. I dunno wat to do or shld i say i can do nth at all.
Since i was small, my frens mostly say their grandparents had alr passed away. So i was like feeling so lucky that mine were not. Was really really lucky to be able to see both sides of my grandparents. But now... If i was small when they pass away, i wun feel the saddness coz i would be ignorant of it. But i am 18 now. Feelings will be shown. and i dun like this kind of feelings. It hurts to see one pass away. I've seen 2 of my frens passed away. I couldnt take it even though they are nt really closed to me. Jus hi-bye frens.
In movies when i see this kind of things, i would also cry la. what more when its real life. hopefully, miracles can happen and let the cancerous cells die.
Only when u believe in miracles, den they will happen.

signing off,
Your ever bubbly, cute Philson Poonie.

2008-08-02T00:07:00.007+08:00

Today is SUPERB with 4 1/2 stars POPCORNS.

Omg i love this pic. it is so so clear and nice. OK, i know i thicked skin but i think this is pretty. tag on my board if u think its nice k?

LOL. today went to vivo to watch 'money not enough 2' with my classmates and this week almost marks the end of the tutorial for most modules. We had Ben's and Jerry as well. XinYing bought a wallet for 73bucks fo the boyf la. She so rich la!!! haha. still say wan buy havaianas for him.

Shop shop shop den went to play arcade. Fun sia. 1 game call "go go balls". haha. shld try it if u rmb the name when u go to the arcade.

The BALLS game

Shot by Terrorist YILIN and Terrorist N-Y-N-E-T-T-E

The Almighty. Can u sense our powers??

Ok, i looked gay in the pic. LOL.

Before

AFTER. ALL HAD A GREAT FALL. except for N-Y-N-E-T-T-E.

The only EASTIE in my class, somewhere near my place. and all pics are from her NIKON DSLR camera which she is proud of. Kudos to the cam for super duper clear pics.

A small grp pic in front of the BIG BIG HUGE popcorn.

Photos of class:

This is when they start to bully the ASSISTANT. *cough cough*

so sad rite, being the module rep isnt as easy as u think esp for this module n class

All the boys in the class at here.

All the gals in the class are here and Ms Patricia Kong.

The Empress sitting on her royal chair

Her 2 thumbs up sign really brings backs memories when i was in sec sch.

U know?? Mr Neo, my maths teacher always do this when taking pics or during teaching in class.

Awwwwwwwwwwww....

sweet and bitter memories. coz AHHH *yawn* long story la. As long as u are in 3E7 or 4E7 or the OUR CLASS NAME "FIGHTANS". juz miss all of them, hopefully to see all back in sch during teachers day celebration. GO GO Power Rangers. -_-"

This is pic is informal. haha. no one sits on the chair, ALL ARE EQUAL.

SEE, we LISTEN TO GOVT.

PRACTISE DEMOCRATIC RULING AND EQUALITY FOR ALL PEOPLE.

awww, arent we patriotic?? we are the NATION's only resource.

We had joy,

We had fun,

We had seasons in the sun,

But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time.

We are parting with Ms Patricia soon. So its like season, they will be gone though nt forever. Coz we will bump into her in sch ma. confirm chop plus GUARANTEE.

signing off,
Your ever bubbly and cute Philson Poonie =DD

2008-07-31T22:47:00.003+08:00

today i changed my blogskin!!! WoOhOo! I am goin to start blogging again alr. I suddenly feel a urge to blog my abt my life again. i dunno why. beats me man. oh well, i feeling nostalgic this few days. Past memories keep flashing back.

Exams are coming real real soon, been working for the past few weeks. feeling v shag lately. but i will perservere coz of dunno wat oso. i juz wanna work, escape from reality, keep my body tired. so i wun think so much stuffs. i dunno wat my aim in life now. i sudden feel so funny, i really dunno wat i thinking, i juz live my life day after day. i sort of lost my fighting spirit.

actually, ever since i broke up, mean like sometimes will think back on the past. i tried to look forward, but always been drag back to the past. its somehow like the waves in the sea. they pull u out but they will bring u back to shore again. u jus cant be moving forward always. some point, u will start to think back...

i am still unable to let go completely though verbally i said i could. everytime i watch a show or see something related to my past, i couldnt help but think back. den i will start to think and think and think till tears drop.

I dun have a galfren now but but i still have MANY MANY MANY GAL FRENS.. LOL. wat rubbish am i talking.

signing off,
Your ever bubbly Philson Poonie

2008-05-21T00:28:00.002+08:00

I know i v long nvr post alr. I may be arent goin to do blogging anymore. LOL. i m sick of it alr. LOL.

2008-04-09T00:20:00.002+08:00

Will be goin to camp for 3 days(9-11 march) before sch reopens. haha. these few days were preparing for the orientation camp. so din blog.

hope the camp will be a nice one. hehe.

FANTASTIC 4! WAHAHAHA.

2008-03-27T10:25:00.002+08:00

Ytd did not do anything much. was slacking at hm doin nth. but went to kallang stadium to watch soccer with my cousin and huijia. its is the Asian World Cup qualifier 3rd round. so SG gt in and continued to battle on. hehe. ytd they won 2-0. and the opponent were like great actors. haha. one was yellow-carded for diving. LOL. retarded shyt u know. and one yellow card was worst. the ball pickers couldnt pass the ball to the goalie so the goalie took the shot awhile ltr. and then the ref gave in a yellow card for tiem wasting. its during the first half. mins b4 the whistle. everyone was like WTH. even the keeper cannot stand it. he wanted to find the ref. though looks like drama but is really pissed for being book for nth.

so back hm. nth to do. watch take the lead. hehe. sexy sia.

tts about it lor. cya.

2008-03-25T23:18:00.002+08:00

had a new blogskin. wl. do this blog skin from 2 to 6am. shag man. was damn tired la. but dun wan to give up. i use dreamweaver thinking can do. but in the end. like sai. cant paste the code. LOL. the note pad n dreamweaver abit diff. but somehow i m able to see the difference and i MADE it. haha. so happy man. but oso sad. coz dun have her anymore le. the whole feeling is different. i created blog becoz of my gfs. when i was dating them, the gal would have a blog de. so i decided to have one to share my happiness with my frens and her. but somehow..... haiz..

today met her again. went to find her coz she need to study for her paper tml. i was there to ensure she had lunch n dinner. coz when i not ard, her parents wun buy dinner for her. so in the end, she eat instant noodles. so BAD for health. dunno what her parents thinking oso.

after with her den want to find wx they all play ball. so now i m hm blogging. tml waking up at 7 coz goin to JOG with my frens. siao sia v early lor. WTH. jogging at 8. haha. so loooonnnnnnggggg guys. blog again next time.

yaya, tml SG vs Leban....(dunno how to spell) at kallang. so goin down to watch. hehe. GO SINGAPORE. fight for the world cup. YEAH. dreams for 2010!!!!